en dof ye ar

Hari ini ..saya merenung kalendar 2007 di atas meja..penuh coretan..agenda-agenda penting sepanjang tahun termasuk cuti-cuti saya..ada yang dirancang benar-benar berlaku.. dan ada yang tersasar..


melihat fail-fail hijau tersusun kemas di gerobok besi..sudah terlihat tugasan-tugasan 2008..
kalendar 2008 yang baru belum saya buka..belum di tampal.. diletak di atas meja.. biarlah..


tahun ini.. saya dapat banyakkk.. Alhamdulillah..tahun ini juga ..saya hilang beberapa.. juga Alhamdulillah..mungkin ada hikmahNya.. saya redha..mungkin saya yang byk dosa..Astaghfirullah..atau tuhan mungkin sengaja menguji..semoga saya mampu terus bersabar..saya redhakan saja..


tapi sepertimana tahun lepas.. beban bahu ini.. masih terasa berat..amanah dipikul masih berat..demi negara..agama dan bangsa.. tahun lepas ..tidak dapat tidur saya dengan amanah ini..tapi sekarang sudah semakin terbiasa..sesekali meracau juga..


Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda yang bermaksud: " Ia (iaitu kepimpinan) adalah amanah dan di akhirat ia menjadi kehinaan dan penyesalan kecuali mereka yang mengambilnya dengan hak dan melaksanakan tanggungjawab yang diamanahkan di dalamnya"

-hadis riwayat Muslim-


biar tumpah air mata berdarah..
saya hanya mampu berserah..
jika sahabat beralih arah..
saya doakan semoga bahagia dan tabah..
walau mungkin tidak sedarah..
namamu tetap dalam sejarah..


cewah.. 6 kerat tu.. banji jangan marah naa...
ada lagi skill2 pantun tuh.hehe
kalu nak jawab silakan ajer..

ikut je

Raya haji hari itu .. sempat borak-borak dengan brutal..
fasal.. fasal.. erm erm..
satu lagi komitmen besar-jika betul-ia tertulis dalam takdir dan rezeki saya-tahun depan..
haha..

biasalah kalu dah nak lompat jauh.. mesti rasa takut dan ragu kan..
kena pulak saya yang gayat ini..

I was rather speculating bout what my parents would say about it..

kata brutal..ryu_7 cakap " mak bapak biasa ikut anak-anak ajer.."

betul ke?

eh brutal n ryu_7 hmmm... ? (*wink)
anymore wisdom from ryu_7 ..brut?

today

prior to 14 hrs journey with countless pit stop from my home town yesterday..I am very sleepy today.. kinda terhuyung hayang macam penagih saja.. dengan mata kuyu ..dah tak punya energy..
ngantuk amat mengantuk..

pagi tadi bangun 5 minit sebelum pukul tujuh ..nasib baik ada yang ingin menumpang ke ofis..kalu tak mau jer aku terus tido...

dalam mengantuk itu sempat jugak aku siapkan 2 draf..


and we (*wink) shared BR ice cream today over lunch..nice flavors.. Jamoca (chocolate fudge n roasted almond) + Banana n strawberry.. nyum..

I want to wash my car today.. but looks like it is going to rain.. aiyaaa.. it has been months ..no matter what i have to wash the car today..

aiyoyo.. and i want to have a good night sleep tonite.. so exhausted..adeh adeh..

The secret of Life

I found this book by Zabrina A.Bakar .. one of my sis collection but i still didn't manage to read it through..
but i found the title is very interesting and the fact that the author was also a blogger made it more appealling..

it is about life..
what life has to offer..
learn to appreciate it..
to educate.. to share.. to reflect.. and to inspire..
the secret of life..

I must find some time to read.. not that the book is so thick.. haha nipis saja..

korban

lama tak update.. since balik dari sabah pastuh pi kuching.. pastuh berhempas pulas kat opis persediaan untuk ke kuantan..sekali banjir.. kensel seme program..
kelam kabut aku menghubungi semua ahli mesyuarat.. habih segala teknologi semboyan..trumpet semua dikerah untuk mewarwar kan pembatalan itu.. aduiii..

aku dah miss banyak kenduri dari bulan lepas..
kenduri nida (ZS old girl), syikin( hosmet cum UTPian), lily (UTPian)..
sorilah kawan-kawan.. aku belum dapat menyusun jadual dan pergerakan ku dengan mantap.. masih bertatih tatih lagi..
itu yang banyak aku terlepas..

arini malas betul bangun..although i was actually in a cheerful mood..
petang semalam aku telah menyetujui satu perjanjian komitmen yang amat besar..
dengan izin orang tua.. dan sedikit kata semangat orang-orang disekeliling..aku dengan yakin telah menyetujui komitmen itu.. eheh..
takpelah demi masa depan..
cewah macam setuju nak kawin jer.. kuang kuang..

tapi arini agak lambat sampai.. bila lif tiba di tingkat 11 .. berebut-rebut plak derang untuk turun.. heran.. ada apa arini yer?..
aku garu-garu kepala sambil mengetip kad.. lengang opis..sib baik ada my staff Dana kat meja .. ditanya-tanya rupanya hari kualiti.. arghh malas plak nak turun..
tapi aku lapar ..nak bekpes.. hmm.. last2 aku berkurung ajer di "gua tempurung" ku itu..Dana plak turun ke dewan dengan Nadi..
sekali derang naik balik..ohh dewan suda penuh.. hmm.. aku ajak mereka bekpes..tapi macam mana yer hendak turun tanpa dikesan.. hehe.. mula laa kitorang menyusup mengikut jalan-jalan tikus sampai ke cafe.. pirate n his hosmet joined us there..

haha..sanggup..makan punya fasal..jalan tikus pun jalan tikus laa..

esok aku cuti.. hari raya.. moga tuhan permudahkan perjalanan kami untuk pulang.. tiap tiap hari aku minta perkhabaran tentang bah.. aku begitu rindu untuk pulang.. tidak sanggup rasanya kalu perlu berhari raya di sini .. tapi kalu suda ditakdir begitu..
arghh aku berusaha juga untuk pulang.. setiap nasihat dan tips pemetaan dan pencarian jalan alternatif aku cuba.. asalkan selamat sampai di rumah..

salam aidiladha ..

setiap perjuangan ada pengorbanan..
setiap pengorbanan ada balasan..
balasan itu perjanjian..
perjanjian keredhaan Tuhan

yeay

Last night papa n mama came.. my bro drove them here..They have a wedding reception to attend tommorrow night.. So they came and visit me while they were here..yeay
they went to pick up my sister at her campus in gombak in the afternoon before headed to my house in bangi..they arrived at nearly 8.00 pm so we went out for dinner..Initially i wanted to bring them to Nim's but since it was situated quite ' dalam kampung', my dad asked for somewhere easier so we went to Limau Nipis.My mum and bro ordered limau nipis special both for nasi goreng and drinks.. while dad had teh halia and nasi gorang ikan masin.. me n my sister had tomyam ..with rice n bihun..had a laugh and chit chat.. i wish i was on-leave today so i could accompany them but i can't..hehe
Bravo to my bro who had drive from kb to kl.. before this he was always afraid of long distavt journey since he will felt sick after that.

The next day was the last day we were in Madinah, at 2 pm we start our journey by bus to Jeddah. It took nearly 7 hours and we stopped at a restaurant (above) for dinner.

Jeddah is a big city.It is the centre for businesses. And here, everything was very modern. by the way the pic above was a fountain ( follow the arrow) said to be the 2nd highest fountain in the world..nearly 120 metres high.

my parents and Jeddah city in the background

me in the city

at the back ground was a floating mosque and the Red sea. We were on our way to the airport.

Sayonara .. Selamat tinggal al-Haramain..

ila liqa' ....ma'a salamah

sehingga kita bertemu lagi..

The Battle of Uhud (Arabic: غزوة أحد) was fought on 23 March 625 (3 Shawwal 3 AH in the Islamic calendar) at Mount Uhud, in what is now north-western Arabia.[1] It occurred between a force from the Muslim community of Medina led by Muhammad, and a force led by Abu Sufyan from Mecca, the town from which many of the Muslims had previously emigrated (hijra). The Battle of Uhud was the second military encounter between the Meccans and the Muslims, preceded by the Battle of Badr in 624, where a small Muslim army had defeated the larger Meccan army. Marching out from Mecca towards Medina on 11 March 625, the Meccans desired to avenge their losses at Badr and strike back at Muhammad. The Muslims readied for war soon afterwards and the two armies fought on the slopes and plains of Uhud.

source :wiki

for more info n full story of the battle go to wikipedia..

kawasan yang berpagar itu merupakan kawasan perkuburan para syuhada termasuklah bapa saudara Rasulullah, Hamzah. Dalam peperangan ini, Orang-orang Islam hampir kalah kerana menyangkakan orang2 musyrikin telah mengalah ..terutama pasukan pemanah yang telah meninggalkan kedudukan mereka tanpa mengendahkan arahan Rasul.Tentera musyrikin meleihatkan keadaan itu telah dengan segera mengambil alih kedudukan pasukan pemanah tersebut dan menyerang tentera Islam. Ramai yang telah terkorban.

bukit pemanah ini berhadapan dengan jabal uhud di mana kedudukan pasukan pemanah islam yang kemudian telah meninggalkan kedudukan ini untuk mendapatkan rampasan perang sebelum di serang musyrikin Mekah.

Berdasarkan cerita ustaz.. beberapa ratus tahun selepas itu..atau 400 tahun dahulu( saya sudah terlupa..harap maaf) kawasan uhud ini pernah mengalami banjir besar dan dengan kuasa Allah, jasad2 3 sahabat nabi yang dikuburkan di sini telah terapung..dan masya Allah jasad-jasad itu kelihatan masih segar seolah-olah masih hidup. Sesudah banjir.. dikuburkan semula.wallahua'lam

At one point the direction of the qibla was toward Bayt al-Maqdis, Jerusalem (and it is therefore called the First of the Two Qiblas). . In Islam, this only lasted for seventeen months, after which the qibla became oriented towards the Kaaba in Mecca. According to accounts from the prophet Muhammad's companions, the change happened very suddenly during the noon prayer in Medina, in a mosque known as Masjid al-Qiblatain (Mosque of the Two Qiblas). Muhammad was leading the prayer when he received a revelation from Allah instructing him to take the Kaaba as the qibla (literally, "turn your face towards the Masjid al Haram"). According to the historical accounts, Muhammad, who had been facing Jerusalem, upon receiving this revelation, immediately turned around to face Mecca, and those praying behind him also did so.

ref: Wiki

These are qurma trees.. macam kelapa sawit aja.. mungkin keluarga yang sama kot.. eheh

qurma baik untuk kesihatan.. according to ustaz..sebaik-baik kurma adalah kurma ajwa atau ada yang panggil kurma nabi yang ditanam sendiri oleh Rasulullah dan paling disukai baginda.

Dari sa'ad ra, Rasullulah bersabda, "Barangsiapa yang memakan 7 butir kurma ajwa, maka dia tidak akan kena racun dan sihir pada hari itu." (HR Muslim)

Dari Aisyah ra,Rasulullah bersabda "Sesungguhnya pada kurma ajwa itu ubat yang mujarab.DAn ajwa merupakan buah daripada surga."(HR Tirmizi)

yang pentng kita mesti yakin..

break

I'm going away to Penang and Sabah consecutively this week..
daa

On the second day in Madinah, we had a tour in the morning. We went to Masjid Quba' which is the first mosque built by Rasulullah.We also went to Masjid Qiblatain, a dates (kurma) plantation and also the dates market.

We left Mekah at 2pm and arrived in Madinah nearllt at 9pm. After dinner, we hurried to the prophet's mosque (Masjid Nabawi) for jamak maghrib n isya' .The mosque was closed at 11 pm.

The next day was the last day we were in Mekah. After subuh and breakfast, we brought down all the luggages to the buses and went for a round in the town. After dzuhur we perform the tawaf wida' (farewell). As the ustaz was reciting the doa after the tawaf, I felt very sad.. I cried and cried..I couldn''t help crying while performing the solat sunat after.

Tuhan janganlah ziarah ini menjadi kali yang terakhir.. Limpahkan rahmat-Mu..Ampunkan dosaku.. Semoga aku dikurniakan rezeki dan sihat tubuh badan serta fikiran untuk kembali sujud di rumah-Mu ini.

amin.

Finally we arrived at masjid Jaaranah to wear ihram as we would perform our umrah again when we were back in Mekah.

On the way to Jaa'ranah after visiting Arafah, we passed the area of Mina, where the pilgrimage will gather stones to throw at Jamrahs. As you can see in the pic, the tents for hajj have already being put up. They are all ready to welcome Hajj end of this month. In the background is four new building(the brown building) under construction which are actually hotels and in 10 years time hotels will replace the usage of tents.

Padang Arafah

far as eyes can see..once before a desert ..now full of trees..

hajj season is just aroung the corner..For mass gathering will be here for sure..
all the people from all four courners of the world..

bagaimana agaknya di padang mahsyar nanti?

Jabal rahmah (means love, kasih sayang) is situated in Arafah. This hill and the monument was built to as rememberance of where adam and eve met after being overthrown from heaven.The ustaz said anyone who prays for Allah to give him or her a "teman hidup" here..insyaAllah(ehem) ..It was quite tiring mounting the steps up..but the view was breathtaking..

On the second day .. we had another tour right after breakfast.. We went to Jabat tsur, Arafah, Mina and Jaaranah Mosque for ihram.

Jabal tsur was situated not far from town.It was surrounded by buildings and houses.The cave was 500 metres up and it took about 2 hours to reach it. This is where The Prophet and his close companion, Abu Bakr went for hiding before Hijrah to Madinah. (The sun was so bright ,the pic wasn't very good..sorry).. Just imagine how Asmak the daughter of Abu Bakr went up and down the hill everyday to send food. And it was said that during the time, she was pregnant.. Subhanallah..

According to history, another miracle happened. When the enemies was in front of the cave, they found a spider web covering the cave and a pigeon nest with eggs at the side.The condition was as if no one had entered the cave for a long time.That shows how Allah will took care those He love, and those who pray to Him.

We had a tour after breakfast. We went to a camel breeding farm and the Hudaibiah village.The farm was about 45 minutes from the city. Out in the middle of the desert we could see the breeding farm.. So many camels( ter-excited plak..sadly my mum left the camera in her luggage ..fufu...but still i had a pic of me with baby camel using my bro's cam.) I even had a taste of camel's milk.. it was sold for 5 Riyals a bottle and it taste like coconut milk shake. eheh Those pakcik n makcik was impressed that me n my brother could drink it despite the smell of the Unta.. well it was nice and suppose to be good for health.haha..

Not far from the farm is the Hudaibiah village..not much to be seen though just houses. We stopped at the mosque to wear our ihram and pray. Behind the mosque is a ruined old building which was said to be where the treaty of Hudaibiah being held. The treaty was between Rasul and The Quraisy to end the war and enable the Muslims from Madinah to enter Mekah for hajj which happened on the year 6 A.H.

We finally arrived in Mekah at about 2 am saudi time. The view of the masjidil haram was so stunning.. and how happy we were knowing that the hotel was just about 100 metres from the mosque.. praises to Allah.

After all baggages have safely kept in respective rooms..we walked to the mosque to perform our first umrah. we went in through gate 62 which is called Bab al Umrah.. When we saw the Kaabah suddenlly there was silence. No one spoke a word as eyes was fix to the baitullah..saat itu juga hati bersyukur.. terima kasih tuhan..kerana sekali lagi memberi peluang hamba mu ini berdiri di depan baitullah..

When we completed all three rituals for umrah which were tawaf, saei and tahallul, it was already nearly 4 am but we went back to the hotel to freshen up before subuh prayer later, at 5.04am.We were exhausted but we won't missed the chance to perform jemaah prayer in front of the kaabah for anything.. the ustaz said performing solat in Masjidil Haram is 100 000 times better.. 100 000 kali lebih pahala.. woho who would want to miss that!

UMRAH RITUALS:

i. a tawaf, which consists of circling the Kaaba seven times in a counter-clockwise direction. Men are encouraged to do this three times at a hurried pace, followed by four times, more closely, at a leisurely pace.[1]

ii.Perform a sa'i, which means rapidly walking seven times back and forth between the hills of Safa and Marwah. This is a re-enactment of Hagar's frantic search for water, before the Zamzam Well was revealed to her by Allah.

iii.Perform a halq or taqsir, meaning a cutting of the hair. A taqsir is a partial shortening of the hair, whereas a halq is a complete shave of the head.

These rituals complete the Umrah, and the pilgrim can choose to go out of ihram. Although not a part of the ritual, most pilgrims drink water from the Well of Zamzam.

These rituals ritual acts symbolic of the lives of the prophet Abraham (Ibrahim) and his wife Hagar (Hajarah), and of solidarity with Muslims worldwide.

source : wikipedia :D

Arrived safely in Jeddah Airport. We immediately rushed to our buses which were already waiting at the airport and soon after we were on our way to Mekah Mukarramah, another 5-6 hrs journey....we chanted the talbiah silently all the way between sleep..hehe.. ngantuk beb

Invocation Mentioned During Talbiah

"O Allah! here I am at Your service, I respond to Your call, O Allah! here I am at Your service, I respond to Your call, You have no partner, here I am at Your service. All the praises and grace are due to You and all the sovereignty is (too) for You and You have no partners with You."

ps: from what i understand the Saudi government is promoting of using Mekah instead of Mecca since it has the closest pronunciation to Arabic sound of Mekah

We boarded the flight MH 150 at 3.00 sumthing pm on Saturday 3rd November. It was an 8 hrs journey. We had to wear our ihram when we were already halfway through the flight as it passed the miqat since we would immediatelly took the bus to Mekah from the airport.

ihram:

The Ihram garments for men consists of two pieces of white sheet. Wrap the larger sheet around your waist to cover your body from the navel to the ankles. Secure the Ihram either with a belt or by a strip of fabric torn from Ihram material. Drape the other sheet over the back and shoulders and wear a pair of stitched or unstitched sandals or shoes which do not cover the ankles. The head should not be covered, and no underwear should be used. The Ihram should preferably be white.Women are allowed to make Ihram in any dress they wish which fulfills the Islamic conditions of public dress, regardless of the color. Women's hands and face should be uncovered in Ihram. Their heads should be covered.

a Muhrim (someone who is in state of Ihram) must observe certain obligations and prohibitions. These are:
- Keep your head uncovered at all times. Women should keep their heads covered

- Do not shave, cut your hair, clip your nails, use perfume, or wear sewn clothes of any kind

- Do not perform marriage or get married yourself

- Do not kill an animal of any kind for any reason, unless it poses a danger to you and to the others.

- Do not enter into conjugal relations with your spouse. Avoid suggestive and provocative talk or gestures and remain focused on Hajj

back home

Saya sudah pulang ..alhamdulillah.. dengan selamat dan sihat walafiat..

When i opened my small office door this morning,i stepped on a few letters and memos.I received a course offer letter, another memo for a meeting an others. wahaha.and of course a bundle of files to settle by next week..isk..

I will try my best to write about my journey..slowly.. and with pictures too..ok?
I hope i still remember everything that the ustaz (our muttawif cum guide) told us ..the history.. the quranic verses and the hadis related to the place we visited..hopefully..i really want to share this with all..but in my own way -lah.. because i'm not that alim.. still learning and learning..:)

people say when we came back from The Haramain (2 tanah haram aka Mekah dan Madinah)..u will miss them..true.. the moment we were on the plane in Jeddah Airport..I was missing them already..still am..seperti wayang gambar ..setiap perkara masih terbayang di mata..silih berganti..

Being there..the feeling was overwhelming ..
bukan air mata sahaja yang mengalir..malah hati turut menangis..
malah mengenangnya sahaja terasa sebak..
Allahu Akbar Allahu Akbar Allahu Akbar

Awayy..

I'll be away for the whole week starting tommorrow..

just wanna share something i read from the Net..

In Arabic the word `Umrah is derived from I`timar which means a visit.
However, `Umrah technically means
paying a visit to Ka`bah,
performing Tawaf [Circumambulation] around it,
walking between Safa and Marwah seven times.

A performer of `Umrah puts off his Ihram by having his hair shaved or cut.

source:www.al-islam.com

Kingdom of Saudi Arabia

Ministry of Islamic Affairs, Endowments, Da‘wah and Guidance

macy grey n joe black

Iryani bercerita fasal kucing montel di rumah jirannya.. teringat saya kepada kucing jiran kiterang,En. Amin (bukan nama sebenar) ..nama dia OREN.. eh bukan oren midesmides..ampun midesmides.. memang nama kucing tuh oren.. maaf zahir batin ye ..selamat hari raya.. :D

selalu petang-petang buleh dengar anak en.Amin (adik- bukan nama sebenar juga) memanggil-manggil si Oren yang memang berwarna celoreng-celoreng jinggapagi-pagi pun gitu...adik bagi kucing tu makan friskies barangkali .. letak dalam pinggan kat tepi pintu rumah.. sekali waktu pagi sebelum die pegi sekolah dan sekali waktu petang..

pernah pada suatu hari tidak lama dulu..aku kurang pasti tapi aku memang dengan tanpa hati perut menuduh kucing itu telah melepas di depan pagar rumah..dan tanpa aku sedari sewaktu pulang dari kerja aku telah memijaknya..dan terus masuk ke dalam kereta selepas membuka pintu pagar..arghhh berhari-hari semerbak di dalam kereta walaupun sudah dibasuh bersih.. dan berbulan-bulan juga aku tidak memakai selipar yang terkena itu..huhhsampai sekarang aku sensitif dengan bau itu..takde bau pun aku cakap ada bau..eheh..
memang aku suka suki menuduh kucing itu..walaupun mungkin kucing lain yg melepas.. arggh tak kira..hehe

pagi tadi..buka sahaja pintu rumah ..aku nampak die bermain-main dengan daun2 yang ditiup angin di depan pintu rumah.. adik aku cakap..oren tunggu nolee tuh..huhh..aku halau-halau dia..syuhh..syuhh.. takut masuk bawah kereta jer..aku nak keluar nih..bahaya..

hehe.. ntah kenapa aku boleh bercerita sal kucing itu pulak..deng..
dulu pun rumah aku ada kucing ..tak bela pun ..cuma kucing-kucing liar yang kebetulan selalu lepak kat pintu dapur.. ada macy grey(jantan-dah mati)..ada joe black (betina-dah pangkat moyang kot dengan kucing lain yang ada kat umah..asyik beranak sahaja..n hampir semua anak dia hitam..)ada si kembar ( 2 ekor..warna putih kelabu)..lupa dah nama.. anak macy and joe tapi aku tak tau dah derang pi mana.. sekarang nih ada sekor jer.. hitam.. and aku pun tak tau tuh joe black ke..atau cucu cicit die dah..haha

gile keje gile

aku balik kg malam ni..
dan akan pulang kembali ke sini malam esok..
keje gila?.. mungkin

adik aku ada kat umah aku kat bangi..
tapi aku balik kg..aku tinggalkan je dia kat umah
keje gila?..mungkin

aku baru cuti seminggu raya hari tu..
dan minggu depan aku akan cuti seminggu lagi..
keje gila?...mungkin

aku makan nasi jamuan raya pukul 12.30 tengahari..
pastuh aku amik adik aku pegilunch dan aku makan lagi..pukul 1.30 pm..
keje gile?..mungkin

ari sabtu lepas aku beli seluar hitam di carrefour midvalley..
semalam aku beli seluar lagi di jusco tmn ekuine..
keje gile?..mungkin

aku dah 4 tahun bergigi besi ..
dan mungkin tidak kisah setahun lagi..
keje gile?..mungkin

jumaat aritu aku lunch break di jusco ekuine seri kembangan..
dan kemudian aku bleh buat pit stop di bangi sebelum masuk opis..
keje gile?..mungkin

macam-macam keje gile aku boleh buat..tapi semua ada sebab-musabab
yang mungkin tidak relevan bg orang lain..
tapi penting bagi aku..aku memang suka buat keje gile..
janji bukan sampai gile..atau buat orang lain gile..sudahlah..

p.s: aku tak jadi pi kuantan sabtu aritu..so V4cS1 geng...amanah korang belum sampai kepada ifa..sorry~~~

hati mencerna

kadang-kadang susah dicerna hal-hal manusia..
sesuatu yang mungkin mudah dan ringan bagi kita mungkin berat dan susah bagi manusia lain..
sesuatu yang mungkin memudahkan dan menyenangkan kita mungkin tidak begitu indah bagi orang lain..
kadang-kadang kerana menjaga hati sendiri .. kita tersepak luka hati orang lain..kita ingat mereka sudah lupa.. sedangkan parut yang tinggal mungkin semakin dalam..
kita boleh buat-buat lupa sebab menjaga hati orang lain.. tapi takkan lupa kerna yang luka hati sendiri..dan orang lain takkan pernah mengerti..
kita bukan hidup seorang diri..kita hidup ramai-ramai..kita takkan boleh hidup seorang..kita perlukan orang sekeliling..walau macam mana menyakitkan orang ramai itu..mereka tetap ada dikeliling2 kita..
aku..aku tanak meluka hati yang ramai..sebab aku tak tau luka nya di mana..nanti susah..MAcam mana aku nak bagi ubat kalu tak tau apa sakit
tapi aku tahan luka hati sendiri..sebab aku tahu nak ubatkan.. ye laa..hati aku..pandailaa aku..biar masa berlalu dan berdarah laju..satu hari mesti hilang luka itu..dan dengan bangganya.. aku hitung parut itu..kerna orang yang melukakan aku telah kalah..sebab aku telah sembuh..

MUAHAHAHAHA
:P
buatlaa lagi~~ingat aku heran??

hpphhh :P

kubur kita lain-lain..

MUAHAHAHAHA

ingat senang ke aku nak sakit hati..

MUAHAHAHAHA

silap-silap orang tu yang luka sendiri..

MUAHAHAHAHA

*pagi-pagi aku dah merapu.. ps: tidak berkaitan dengan yang hidup mahupun yang mati..hanya berkaitan aku.. tapi kalu terasa bukan salah aku..sebab bukan tentang sesape pun..yang nak terasa tu pehal.. :D *peace

apsal arini aku terasa evil.. duhh

dugaan kecil

Saya ingat saya n adik je yang diserang demam selsema sejak raya..rupa-rupanya ramai yer..
iryani kat UK pun sama?.. isk..isk..

Saya mula terasa seram sejuk hari rabu selepas raya.. hari saya sepatutnya pulang ke KL malam itu..
sempat lagi pegi beraya rumah Che Ning (adik mama) tapi saya tak pakai baju raya pun..tak kuasa.. selamba sarung jeans n baju tshirt yg dh lama..teruk gile kalu dipikirkan..
Sampai jer umah che ning saya terjelepuk di sofa..buruk perangai betul kan?..che ning nak buat air sejuk..saya boleh dengan sedihnyer request air kosong..last2 che ning buat teh panas untuk semua orang..

malam tu saya dan adik sampai di LCCT pukul 11.30pm..slightly delayed..sampai di KLIA plak dah tengah malam..ingatkan nak amik ERL ..sekali train bergerak kul 1 pagi..gile ape sy nak tunggu satu jam..last2..naik cab terus sampai umah..nasib baik dengan menni..kalu sorang..haru..

esok pagi2 lagi saya tumpang sy*kin pi amik kete kat opis..sekali lagi saya heret menni sekali.. dengan muka tak malu dan mandi ala-ala kadar nyer kiterang pi amik kete..pastuh pi stesen minyak ..isi minyak..amik duit..pam tayar..
pastuh singgah kedai ..bekpes..hahaha..tak malu betul..muka mandi kerbau
nak wat cemana dua-dua demam dan batuk dengan hebatnya..mau nak mandi beria-ria pagi-pagi buta..
sampai umah..sekali lagi saya pengsan..badan memang panas..tapi saya berbungkus sakan dengan comforter..
kesian menni..esoknye dia exam..

petang tuh saya gagahkan juga drive hantar menni balik kampus..on the way balik ingat nak singgah klinik..tapi klinik tu tutup..nasib baik saya masih lagi cuti hari jumaat itu..
maka bermula laa episod tidur -bangun makan roti sekeping-tidur lagi..selama 3 hari.. lemah betul rasa..tak pernah demam sebegini..
selalu sy malas nak pegi klinik kalu demam tapi kali ni sy tak sabar2 tunggu klinik tuh bukak..
silap2 arituh nak mintak masuk hospital lagi.. sib baik tak call ambulans
setelah 2 kali tukar ubat.. dan sekali lagi mc pada hari isnin..the nxt day.. selasa tuh.. sib baik boleh bangun pagi ..dan sy masuk opis ... alhamdulillah getting better walaupun masih belum sihat sepenuhnya..
sekurang-kurangnya dh ada selera nak makan. :D

semalam telefon rumah kunun nak mengadu..but my parents takde.. in Sabah rupanya till weekend.. mengadu to my elder bro..die bleh gelakkan sy..
die cakap macam budak kecik.... huhh.. tu yang malas nak mengadu tuh..

arghh..batuk ku datang lagi..dah laa ofis nih sejuk.. naik semput dah ..
sib baik keje tak banyak..

kata menni ..kawan dia sms a comforting mgs saying that all the illnesses and sickness tuh.. untuk menghapuskan dosa2 kecik..yang kita buat...lebih kurang gitulaa..tak ingat ayat betul die..
kalu betul..alhamdulillah..tapi kene byk bersabar laa kan?

chiows

ZS girls on Hari Raya

Congratss

The cast of the drama at home..

ps:my nephews n niece

What i did last raya

p/s: all pics are from my private collection and may hv not been taken during this raya..

Selamat Hari Raya

is it too early to wish Selamat Hari Raya??

I don't think so..

by the way..RAYA OPEN HOUSE

on 2nd raya .. from noon..

all friends and families are invited!!

AMBANG SYAWAL

Hari ini sudah 26 Ramadhan..
I will start my Raya leave tomorrow..yehuu

I've attended a few iftar organize by several people..
iftar has always means get together either among friends or family

the ministry iftar with the prime minister
on duty being the LO for the VVIPs..so not much to be said..
Luckily the Datin that i was assigned to didn't come..but still need to stand by for tugas-tugas lain..

iftar with primary school's friends has always been a blast..
apelagi kalu sudah ada yg tidak bersua sejak darjah 3.. bila jupe manakan tidak jadi gila2..
tapi macam malu-malu ja..hehe can view pics at ajah's

as usual fawa organized UTPJan2000 iftar..n this year at chicken HArts in Times square
can view the pics HERE..thanks to topeks.. whom i heard sedang berjinak-jinak dengan dunia fotografi..
sapa ada projek..bole cari dia..

other iftars..either accompanied by pirate..or sister ,hosmets or ofismate..or at my aunties..

thanx guys!!

esok balik kampung!!
ooo ooo balik kampung.~~

hari ini..

pic was taken during buka puasa do with ZS Clan

[pinjam tajuk thread kat PTDportal}
arghh..lega rasa..semua fail yang urgent untuk tarikh2 cuti raya telah disiapkan..

hari ini baru rasa tenang.. 2 hari kepala berdenyut..
namun gagahkan jua sebab nak siapkan semua keje yg due date tarikh bercuti raya..
dahlaa due raya..yang berat2 plak tuh..memerlukan ketelitiaan dan penganalisaan yang lebih serius dan terperinci..
yang mana amat sukar untuk dilakukan apabila kepala kita sedang berdenyut-denyut.
ditambah pula dengan pendingin hawa yang "full blast" menggigit tulang-tulang sendi rasanya..
(i think i got migraine lah ..ergghh.. habislah..)


hari ini baru terperasan dengan lagu-lagu raya yang berkumandang..
isk-isk punya laa berkurung di bilik kecil ku ini...
diorang kat luar dah lama duk pasang lagu raya..

hari ini juga berjaya menyiapkan borang kebenaran ke luar negara..
dah submit kepada ketua jabatan dan insyaAllah by esok boleh submit kepada KSU..
harap bleh setel cepat2 malas nak pening-pening kepala..
mana aku mau pegi..?..
tunggu..

hari ini..apa lagi akan berlaku hari ini?.. akan disambung kemudian..

Jalan Pulang

Firman Allah dalam surah Ali ‘Imran 135-136: (maksudnya)
“Dan mereka yang apabila melakukan perbuatan keji, atau menganiaya diri sendiri, mereka ingat kepada Allah lalu memohon ampun dosa-dosa mereka - dan sememangnya tidak ada yang mengampunkan dosa-dosa melainkan Allah - dan mereka juga tidak meneruskan (perbuatan buruk) yang mereka telah lakukan itu, sedang mereka mengetahui (akan salahnya dan akibatnya). Orang- orang yang demikian sifatnya, balasannya adalah keampunan dari Tuhan mereka, dan syurga-syurga yang mengalir di bawahnya beberapa sungai, mereka kekal di dalamnya; dan yang demikian itulah sebaik-baik balasan (bagi) orang-orang yang beramal.”

Jalan pulang..
luas terbentang..
dijanjikan tuhan..
tidak membebankan..

jalan pulang..
tidak pernah dihalang..
walau apa dosa..
keturunan dan usia..

jalan pulang..
tidak pernah disekat..
biar jarak waktu..
latar diri atau harta..

jalan pulang..
jalan kembali..
kpd fitrah..
hamba abadi..

jalan pulang..
penuh keampunan..
kekuatan azam..
rela berserah..

jalan pulang..
tiada tiket dijual..
hanya jiwa yang luhur..
hati yang ikhlas..
mengadap Tuhan Yang Maha Pengampun..
-nlene

Oopss..another best-Day!!

actually it was yesterday

happy-happy belated best day

dear najahah...

semoga terus panjang umur dan dimurahkan rezeki yg diberkati!!~~

Happy Best-day..eh Happy Birthday...

bila pose nih malas btul nk meng-update blog..

slow gile rasa .. n takde idea..tapi ari nih kena tulih..sbb

arinih besday M-I-d..eh Oren..

dan juga

esok besday az*ra

n weekend besday pirate

happy-happy birthday !!

fenin

Semalam saya ditimpa sakit kepala yang amat sangat..bukan pening.. bukan berputar-putar..tapi sakit..urat-urat di kepala bagai menarik-narik mata..sungguh.. tidak pernah sesakit itu..lepas berbuka dan maghrib..saya cuba untuk melelapkan mata..gagal..
fikir-fikir..mungkin angin..perut menolak-nolak makanan yang saya makan untuk berbuka..habis keluar semuanya..saya cuba untuk tidur lagi sekali..tangan didahi.. saya pun tidak sedar bila saya terlelap..tau-tau saya tersedar jam 4.30 pagi dengan sakit kepala yang masih bersisa..usai bersahur..2 biji panadol ku telan.. dan baring2..menunggu subuh..
dugaan hari pertama..

hari ini juga saya mendapat keputusan exam..alhamdulillah lulus..

saya juga telah mengisi carta cuti raya.. tak taulah diluluskan bos atau tidak..tapi sy rancang bercuti 8 hari...hmm

ptg ni juga ada majlis berbuka puasa Kementerian Keselamatan Dalam Negeri dan Kementerian Kewangan bersama Pak Lah di Masjid Putra, Putrajaya. Hmm ada tugasan untuk aku..kena laa pegi..

happiness

David,53 a funeral director for 30 years said in one of Oprah show..about the pursuit of happiness..

"Being successful in life is not what really matters. Being significant in life is really the core root of what matters."

Wow!No wonder he was so satisfied with his life despite having to deal with death everyday doing his job.
I think that is just the way that we should always perceive our life..No matter what we do in life..not for the vast amount of money, promotion or recognition..
but to do even simple things that will be meaningful.. for us or others..in order to feel happy ..always

My dictionary?

nolee -- [adjective]: Having the texture of congealed cheese 'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

nurlina -- [noun]: A person who laughs at anything (even this entry) 'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

on duty -ii-

After a long weekend..
I was at the parliament yesterday..

Members of parliament (MP) raised several issues ..
-patriotism..
-police
-integrity
-teacher
-student relation
-education
and others..

duty in parliament actually was quite fun..despite having to meet all the who's who in our political scene..it also means that i could meet several other officers from various ministries and other departments.

We had a good laugh watching our MPs arguing with each other about certain issues..(gelak..gelak jugak..karang terlepas plak isu yang untuk perhatian..hehe) and also had a nice chat and a change of opinion with other officers.. even my name.. the 'TG' also has been one of the topic for our discussion over coffee time there..huh ..jadi bahan lak aku ni..

Tanjung?

I was in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah..
just checked in the hotel..
the telephone rang..(not my hp)

"Hello?"
"room 415?"
"yes"
"I just want to confirm..are you Miss Tanjung noleelee?"
"ermm.. It is actually Tengku noleelee" and i was holding my laugh
"owh..sorry sorry..that's all Miss.. thank you"
"welcome" and i laughed and laughed..

told about this to Puan,my boss during breakfast
and she laughed..
huhh..

p/s: never ever put any acronym for your name..esp TG. :P)

2 years ago

today marked the second year of me being in this service.Thanx to pirate who reminded me about that..even he was reminded by ecah huuhhuu..cepatnya..

Through out the years i've gained bunch of friends.. a lot of lessons learned..
about law of work..law of life..

pada tarikh ini 2 tahun yang lepas , saya telah melaporkan diri ke INTAN wilayah selatan (IKHWAS) di Kluang Johor.Penuh debaran.. and excitement..quite a relief bacause i knew i would meet a few familiar faces such as syikin n puteh from university..and shahida whom i knew while completing my industrial training in PETRONAS Gas Berhad Kerteh.

a week in Kluang..was more of familiarisation course but it was called PTD Unggul..and guess what Kluang was having a water supply shortage..so we were not allowed to wash clothes in the hostel..everything must be sent for laundry services.

I didn't know what to expect..coz this is my first job..naive..yes I was..
but i would say it was an advantages too.. since i hv nothing to compare..
I just accepted the service as it is..the long hours..the heavy workload..the free time..the minum pagi..the pay increase..the jerks i've met..the nice guys..the best bossess
everything..I accepted it as it is..

It is not as glamourous as it may seems..this services is not merely the stepping stone of being 'duta' to overseas..that is the misunderstanding many people have about have about this service..hmm..
when you are posted to any ministry..your designation will be.. "Penolong Setiausaha".. Assistant Secretary..a friend ask me once " kenapa Setiausaha nak kene ada penolong?".
Another friend asked" Setiausaha tu pembantu boss..hang lagi bawah dari setiausaha?"
hmm.. susah nak explain..
tapi kalu anda di jabatan-jabatan..nampak gah.."Penolong pengarah.."wuhuhuhu
hehe....

tiada masalah siapa hebat..siapa handal..siapa lebih pakar..siapa lebih cakap..yang penting semua demi negara..untuk kepentingan rakyat..
niat harus betul..

ape-apelah..yang penting..

"BERKHIDMAT UNTUK NEGARA"

ps: kak chech put some DPA pics in her blog..I like..I like.. can u find me in those pics?? hehe..go n see it here

seroja

meeting 3 jam..aku buhsan.. I scribble this in between my notes..haha

dikait-kait buah nan ranum
memanjat tinggi berpaut dahan
seroja kembang wangi mengharum
Indah budi jadi taruhan

memanjat tinggi berpaut dahan
dahan berpaut si pohon manggis
Indah budi jadi taruhan
rupa yang elok bertambah manis

dahan berpaut sipohon manggis
pohon ditanam didalam taman
rupa yang elok bertambah manis
jadi pujaan malah idaman

pohon ditanam didalam taman
taman dijaga dibelai sendiri
jadi pujaan malah idaman
tidak sombong meninggi diri

I was back from Sabah last week..
I went to enjoy the fireworks competition in Putrajaya..
I've attended the PTD Muda dinner last sunday..
I spent time shopping with my parents, sister n pirate earlier this month..
but i don't have the mood to write..
I dunno...why..

ps: nantilah ada mood balik gue tulis byk2 sampai muak..
ps2: kalu ada yg nak balas pantun tu..silakan

freezy

I'm freezing...ggggggg

dunno why but i think the office getting colder these days..
one of my staff wore gloves today..much to the laughing of others
but i did understand..it was damn freezing..

jumaat...patutlaaa

apsal eh?..takde mood btul arini..
last2. aku duk je minum teh tarik sambil sembang2 ngan puan(bos aku) and other bosses..
sambil-sambil tuh tunggu my staff siapkan mende2 nak bawak ke meeting ari isnin nati..

oopss. lupa nak mention..aku akan terbang ke KK this weekend attending a meeting dgn puan..
dan namanya aku ni anak kuli bos..aku laa yang bawak all the things for meeting..takkan bos plak kan?

bulan ni antara bulan yang tak banyak kerja..
fail yang masuk boleh dikira dengan jari..
aku paling risau bulan posa nanti ..mesti tak menang tangan ..
mana nak kejar cuti raya lagi..waaa...

ape pun aku enjoying the time i hv now.
ape org nak kata ..katalah..hanya aku yang tau keje aku..hihi
selain bos lah..

aku sebenarnya tengah mencari alternative lain untuk meletakkan gambar2 supaya boleh dipamerkan di blog ini..dulu semua aku simpan di photobucket tapi nampaknya mungkin my mass upload telah dapat dikesan majikan ku maka ia telahpun disekat .maka sekarang sudah terlalu lama rasanya blog ini tanpa gambar..

any help anyone?

scratch aa

I scratched my chevy last night.. wahaha...sob sob
Nk parking kt tepi...elak my hosmet's waja yang parking kat depan..
grrp.. i scratch the left door..too close to tiang gate.. damn..
i blamed the darkness n my poor eyesight..sob sob
i am a bad bad driver..

cemana nak ilangkan scratch tu?
or at least kurangkan sikit dari nampak jelas sgt..
wax? polish?cat lain?..any idea guys??

ada orang marah pagi ni..bukan marah saya..
tapi marah bos dia..tapi dia cakap kat saya ..:D

"jangan marah nanti kena jual.." kata P ramlee dalam 3 Abdul..

kadang-kadang ada saja orang-orang yang memang menguji kesabaran betul..
i wrote a few post waktu tengah marah di blog ini..
marah fasal trafik..fasal orang2 yang memang menganggu ketenteraman.. hehe
panas telinga.. merah muka..sesak dada..bila marah..tapi tak boleh nak dilepaskan..betul?

Diriwayat daripada Abu Hurairah r.a. bahawa seorang lelaki meminta nasihat daripada Nabi s.a.w.
katanya, "Berilah wasiat kepadaku." Sabda s.a.w ,'“Janganlah engkau marah.”
Lelaki itu mengulangi (permintaannya) beberapa kali. Rasulullah s.a.w. tetap bersabda, "Janganlah engkau marah." (Hadis Riwayat al-Bukhari)

memanglah marah itu sifat manusia..dah semulajadi..macam juga sedih..gembira..
tapi spesifik nasihat nabi.. jangan cepat marah..
kenapa?.. kerana orang yang marah akan hilang kewarasannya..maka mudah terkena hasutan syaitan..
Banyak yang buruk akibatnya jika marah.. bukan setakat bermasam muka..malah putus saudara..

apa nak buat bila marah ye?.
tahan dan kawallah diri seketika..tarik nafas dalam-dalam..
jangan cepat melenting..maafkan dahulu orang itu.. mungkin dia tidak tahu.. mungkin dia tidak sengaja..
firman Allah S.W.T: "…Dan orang yang menahan kemarahan-nya, dan orang-orang yang memaafkan kesalahan orang. Dan (ingatlah) Allah mengasihi orang-orang yang berbuat perkara-perkara yang baik."
(Ali Imran3-134)

berdoalah di dalam hati semoga dijauhkan daripada hasutan syaitan dan tinggalkan lah tempat itu..
Sabda Baginda: "Apabila seseorang kamu marah, sedang dia berdiri, maka duduklah,
jika marahnya berhenti (maka baiklah) jika belum, maka hendaklah dia berbaring."
(Abu Daud)

basuh muka..atau berwuduklah.. sabda Nabi s.a.w.: "Sesungguhnya marah itu dari syaitan. Syaitan itu dijadikan daripada api,apabila kamu marah,maka hendaklah dia mengambil wuduk." (Abu Daud)

hehe..saya olah semula semua tips ini dari internet...jika ada salah tolong betulkan..
atau anda ada petua-petua lain..
atau teknik tersendiri anda mengawal kemarahan ..? sharing is caring! kata seseorang di PTD Portal..hehe

ingat.. bukan kekuatan badan yang menjadikan kita seorang yang gagah..
tetapi kekuatan kita mengawal diri..
kerana nabi pernah bersabda:
"Bukannya kuat (kerana dapat mengalahkan orang) dengan bergusti,
tetapi kekuatan sebenarnya ialah orang yang dapat mengawal dirinya ketika marah."
(Al-Tirmizi)

cucuk la ..bukan susuk..

I did acupunture today..

this lady came in our office and we sort of gathered in my boss office .
She checked my pulse and tongue..
She said i was always tired.. true
she said i always have headache...true
she said my heart was a little weak....maybes
he said my kidney also a bit weak...maybe
she said i have a low blood..think it is true..

so she put the needles..
8 altogether..
1 at my left wrist..
1 at my right wrist..
3 at my left leg..
and another 3 at my right leg..

how I feel?
"macam sengal-sengal kat kaki"
"hujung jari pun rasa sejuk-sejuk"

One of my staff passed out
maybe there are a lot of illnesses that she had..
or maybe because she was so scared of needles..
or maybe because of the cold..but after a while she was fine..

Some had needle at their stomach..
some had them on their legs..
some had it on their heads..
treating all kind of illnesses they individually had..

I might try it again next friday..
Might try reflexology too..

p.s: fear was just a feeling to embrace.. not a hindrance.. :D

shopping spreee weeeee~~!!

I don't know why..but the shopaholic in me really showing herself these few days...
waaa waa ...the urge to shop ..undeniable..
since we received the payslip..and up to this day..i've bought numerous items..not to mention the "jalan-jalan cari makan" spending..hehe



1. 2 ready-made baju kurung

2. a long skirt

3. hush puppies shoes

4. a cream jacket

5. a set of kerongsang

6. a book



n yesterday... nyarisss.... i repeat...nyaris.. a new handphone..
sib baik rasa bleh lagi bersabar.. dengan handphone yang semakin weng itu..
but i definitely going to buy one.. if not nxt month perhaps the other month..



n ... weekend ni macam kene pi servis kete.... waaaaaaa...
n seterusnya 1 minggu out station..yee haa..



walaupun ada yang aku dibelanja ( thanks *wink) but i really can't go on like this..
tidak mahu mengajar diri berbelanja sesuka ati..
biar susah sekarang..jangan merana kemudian hari..
need to start saving now..or else mana mungkin mau bersara as a millionaire.. :D



ps: dulu suka baca buku "how to be a millionaire " menjadi jutawan .. tapi kebanyakan mereka banyak menjadi kaya dengan menceburi bidang hartanah.. uhh tidak mampu gue sekarang..

..lalala..

You gain some..you lose some..

that is the law of life..
you can't have everything..you have to compromise..
and accept that while you are earning something ..you are sacrifising something..
that is the fact of life..

some may say.. no .. i believe we can still have all the things we want..
i don't think so..
although it may be not that much ..to give you a great impact but..
there must be some little thing you lose in gaining something..
must be..

so in the end..

it is just you..
either you are ready to lose them ..
are you capable to bare the consequences..
are you brave enough to face the heartbreak..
are you strong enough to pick up the pieces and live..
are you ..?

p/s:
or do I?

p/s II :
Banji's blog..Immortal.. received an award..Bravo bro..
tetiba teringat hikayat si gajah merah dan drama maghrib..haha..
the blog really am something (I've put the link on the sidebar)..
and for you to received that award must be very exciting..
you are new to blog scene is one thing..but to blog with a focus,purpose,full of wisdom and appreciation of others is another..
Banji was a senior i've got to know tru the chatting madness in UTP ( i still think the UTP channels... do give a great benefit of networking for UTPians.).. selalu berbalas pantun..but i can't never beat yours..salute .. ahli bahasa pujangga yg berjaya..haha
and again..congratulations!

STUPID!

I'M DAMN ANGRY WITH THAT LORRY DRIVER...
ADA KA NAK OVERTAKE AKU KAT ONE WAY LANE YG SEMPIT TUH..
TGH TURUN FROM FLYOVER LAK TUH N CORNER..BUDUSS..

TAU LAA LORI HANG BURUK..
KOT2 KENE KETE ORG LAIN NIH..APE CITE?..
ISK.. TAK PENAH AKU SUMPAH ORANG MACAM NI..NTAH PEPE KO..
AKU DH KASI CAN OVER TAKE..
ALIH-ALIH KO PEGI PECUT IKUT RAPAT KANCIL DEPAN PLAK...
PASTUH TUKAR LANE 3-4 KALI..
SIB BAIK AKU NIH RABUN TAK NAMPAK NO PLAT HANG..
TAU LAA NAK CEPAT..APE? INGAT ORANG LAIN NIH BERSIAR-SIAR KE??
BUDUSS LAA..


DAMN..PAGI2 AKU DAH MARAH ORG..

it"s OK ....it's alright.. fight fight fight

A few commented that this blog getting gloomy..
What I wrote was heartrending and distressing.. Some even worried that I may lose my smile..

Well ..don’t be dear..
this is just a way of me releasing the suffocating bubbles in my chest..
I wrote because I feel that someone out there do care.. and it is proven that you all care..

It is not that my passing days were as gloom as this blog getting to be..
It was not even close.. in fact I was just the same me.. the “tak kisah” me..
I’m happy.. it was just the up and down of life..
and I may have chosen to write only those downs days here..hence you thought I was having a tough time..

No dear friends.. I’m alright..

Ps: Tuhan bersama mereka yang sentiasa mahu bersyukur

Breathless

Why is it when I was happy.. Blessed. Feeling contented with all that I have...
Suddenly the pressure came.. Putting the heaviest rock on my chest..
Suffocated.. I thought I’m gonna die..

Why is it that I felt someone is not happy with me..
The more I ignore it the more I think it is true..
The more I choose to please the more I’m hurt
And I’m bleeding even severely when I realize someone is hurting just because of me..
The selfish me..

Remember I wrote in previous post.. I’ve been pushing myself so hard..
Although it felt like enough I kept pushing harder..
I will break.. Sooner or later..
I’m falling apart already..
Each part of me heading to a different end..
And I .. More confused then ever..
Lost my way in the dark..
And blinded by the light..
I will never see…
Or is it me who is plain ignorant that I refuse to see


“Ya Allah, hamba bersabar atas segala ketentuan-Mu”.

dugaannn...

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syok aku menaip paper yang nk diangkat kpd dato..
sekali...
tup!(black out)

sheessssshhhh..

ps: sudahkah anda membaca CLEO bulan ini? saya amat tertarik dengan jaket putih dipakai oleh mandy moore di muka depan...ayy yaya i like~

Some say this is me

You are always questioning and learning,
and you seem young and alive no matter what your chronological age,
for your mind is always alert, curious, flexible and open to new experiences.
You have a childlike enthusiasm for anything new and you learn easily,
but you also get bored rather quickly.
You can be something of a scatterbrain,
for you tend to have so many ideas and irons in the fire that it is hard to keep track of them all. You need and crave

Your Real Motivation
You are, in many ways, an eternal child.
Your mind is bright, alert, curious, flexible, playful, and always eager for new experiences
- and your attention span is often quite brief.
You grasp ideas quickly and once your initial curiosity has been satisfied,
you want to go on to something else.
You crave frequent change, variety, meeting new situations and people.
variety, change, mental stimulation, and an active social life.

befriend

"Friends are the family we choose for ourselves,"
writer Edna Buchanan once said.

what a friend (may) means to a friend

his mirror..
where he sees his reflection ..

his shoulder to cry on..
whenever he is sad..

his punching bag..
when his is so piss off..

his sunshine in a rainy day..
when he lost his smile..

his partner in crime..
when he needs some fun..

his clown..
when he needs some laugh..

his big tree..
when he needs some shade..

a confidante..
when he felt unsure..

his teacher..
whom he learn about life..

who we are to a friend is up to them to write about..
they may come and go.. near or far..
they may hurt u so..hurt n cry..
but we will stick together..
we are always here..
staying true and through..
now a friend.. forever be.

*his referring to many his or her