Why is it when I was happy.. Blessed. Feeling contented with all that I have...
Suddenly the pressure came.. Putting the heaviest rock on my chest..
Suffocated.. I thought I’m gonna die..
Why is it that I felt someone is not happy with me..
The more I ignore it the more I think it is true..
The more I choose to please the more I’m hurt
And I’m bleeding even severely when I realize someone is hurting just because of me..
The selfish me..
Remember I wrote in previous post.. I’ve been pushing myself so hard..
Although it felt like enough I kept pushing harder..
I will break.. Sooner or later..
I’m falling apart already..
Each part of me heading to a different end..
And I .. More confused then ever..
Lost my way in the dark..
And blinded by the light..
I will never see…
Or is it me who is plain ignorant that I refuse to see
“Ya Allah, hamba bersabar atas segala ketentuan-Mu”.