Wah.... fuh fuh ..berhabuk bersawang blog aku nih.. silap silap dah jadi sarang tikus.. lama kan tinggal. Bukan apa.. kemahuan untuk menulis agak berkurangan walaupun banyak perkara yang berlaku..namun ntah.. mood takde untuk mencoretkan di sini. Gambar lagilah takde. Huhu.
Masa pun agak kesempitan. Kalau ada masa dirumah pun banyak melayan anak bujangku yang sorang tuh. Layan baca buku, layan main bola. Kalau di ofis, almaklum saja lah.

Tapi insya Allah .. akan ada updatenya lambat atau cepat.

So for a quick update of what happening since last I blog.

1. Home project. Alhamdulillah slowly settle down. Dh dapat sofa baru yang selesa. Sofa lama ingat nak let go. So sapa2 berminat boleh roger2. Sebenarnya Adik Ipar i dah booking tapi dia belum cari lori lagi. Bilik semua dah kemas. Ruang atas dh selamat dijadikan office area . Mmg tempat lepak daddy Irfan. Yang belum dapat dibuat divider antara dapur n ruang makan, ingat nak buat kabinet sikit dalam 6 kaki tapi belum diconfirm dengan kontraktor. Mamat tu pun cakap jadual kilang dia tengah penuh so. Biar dululah. Sebab bukan keperluan mendesak pun. Cuma I kena pastikan dapur sentiasa kemas lah kot ada tetamu datang heh



2. Ofis?..malas nak citer biasa saja. Alhamdulillah dah disahkan position sekarang. Itu aje.



3. Bonus raya? Alhamdulillah rezeki. Planning saya nak beli peti sejuk baru memandangkan keperluan mendesak. Yang digunakan sekarang yang satu pintu tuh. Sekarang ni nak kena gi pasar 2 kali seminggu sebab takleh nak beli sekali banyak. Tak muat dah nak letak bahan-bahan mentah. Zaman dulu ok la. Ini isi rumah dah bertambah. Tapi tak sempat nak survey2 lagi. Nanti lah. Haa peti sejuk ni pun maybe nanti nak let go. Kalau ada yang nak especially budak2 bujang yang duk menyewa tuh. Tolong cari lori n angkut jer.



4. Puasa. Oh tahun ini baru sekali berbuka puasa diluar. Satu pencapaian yang hebat bagi kitorang tau. Tahun lepas, hampir 80 % berbuka kat luar.
   


5. Last Wednesday, kami ajak kawan-kawan rapat dan jiran-jiran berbuka di rumah. Tak masak pun. Saya buat puding caramel je . Yang lain semua masak kat dapur orang.. hehe.. Terima kasih pada yang datang. Saja prehousewarming. Nak tengok boleh manage ke tak saya ni buat majlis. :D . Alhamdulillah rezeki semua orang ..siap boleh tapau nasi kerabu lagi.



6. Raya? InsyaAllah kami beraya di bumi kenyalang tahun ini. Hari jumaat terbang pulang. Tengoklah kalau rajin saya cuba amik gambar banyak-banyak sikit.



7. Irfan? Alhamdulillah sihat. Sejak berhentikan dia nursery and lepas yang warded 5 hari tu dia dah takde demam dan selesema dah. Lasak. Dah namanya lelaki. Tapi senang senyum. Sapa-sapa tegur pun dia senyum. Sekarang mulut bising tapi tak faham pun.. yang boleh pun dade (daddy), taetae (air..sbb mak dia suka minum teh ..semua air dia bantai panggil teh) , mamam (makan) yang lain tak berapa nak faham. Huhu.Tiap –tiap hari balik kerja kena main bola ngan dia dulu. Kalu duduk pun dia akan mai tarik suh main bola dulu so layan je la.

29 already?

I feel like i have lost myself especially careerwise. I personally believe I didn’t really ready for this but it came anyway so i have to embrace it whether i like it or not. And the feeling of being neglected getting stronger and stronger (careerwise ok. I am happy at home.huhu). My quiet nature make me drift futher away. Sighhh
I am still stuck in the dark room with many doors. Sob sob

I will never climb the step anymore unless i am really truly ready. I don’t care anymore if others have leap futher up. I don’t care. I am not here for the money futhermore the power. I need money but am not crazy chasing it. The more power you have..the heavier your responsibility are .

I am happy with what i have. I need the peace. Peace in heart.
Allah pls give me the peace i need and also to those around me so they can be kind to others. Amin.

I envy those who can stay at home but still generate income.... or at least have flexible working hours. I like.

Oh I am now getting more interested in home design. How happy seeing all the beautiful homes. I wish my home is like that. It will.. in a few years. It takes time to collect things and decorate it so that it will reflect the owners personalities. Huhu...

My birthday on Saturday? Celebration in pyjamas huhu. Tett dropped by with a cute pink-haired doll cake. Irfan was happy as if it was his birthday.. huhu. Thanks tett. When tett left, we went out for a heartiest steak and pasta meal. Burp.

The HOME

I called it Home because it is ours (woohoo!) and I really want it felt like home. The place where your heart is no matter where you go.

We received the key for the home sometime at the end of last year. After some defect complaint, and repair, we took some time figuring out what to do with a few extra feet behind the house and the kitchen. After some negotiations and discussions, we decided to extend the kitchen to the back and did a small laundry area. We hired a contractor company and asked them to also do the plaster ceiling for the whole ground floor and also the wiring for the whole house. woohoo There goes all my money... muahahahaha

Actually I was quite lucky to have bought this house before the price went whooping up and I got the loan marked up. So I still have a few thousands from the loan that cover the renovation. huhu so not SEGEDEBUK all have to be paid now lah. huhu.

Now. The renovation + the wet kitchen cabinet (with cooker, hood and sink installed)+ plaster ceiling+ wiring. DONE -minor complaints on furnishing though. I am a fussy customer. but my husband is fussier hahaha.

Tomorrow they will install the dry kitchen cabinet which I hired another contractor to do because the former contractor quoted a very high price. I saved a couple thousands okay.


The lighting for plaster ceiling-DONE
Fans for living, dining and all bedrooms -DONE
lighting for all bedrooms- TOMORROW
lighting for all bathroom-next week (they have to order it)
wall light for staircase-tomorrow
Lighting in the storeroom and laundry area-tomorrow

woohooo.. There were a lot of discussions and negotiations went on as we want things that are affordable but nice and long lasting. huhu as the process went on we gained a lot of new friends haha.

So tomorrow dear husband will be on leave to supervise the whole work .
and tomorrow the bedroom set for master bedroom and the dining set will be delivered. Wahaha. Can't wait. We actually bought it last year in June but asked the shop to keep it for us. They will deliver them tomorrow.
We will start slowly moving out the stuff this Friday. and slowly moving in. hehe.

Excited.
Super excited.

Nothing else

Still thinking about our new home,
day and night
what to do, what to pack,
what to put where

oh... ikutkan hati mahu saja cuti seminggu dan menyelesaikan semuanya
tapi cuti sangat limited

I can't concentrate on anything else
nothing else
not even work

aaaaarrrgghhhh
i want to move in now!!!

Can't wait!

Can't wait oh I can't wait
moving on
moving to our new sanctuary
ours!
oh I can't wait!

yippee!

Free lecture

For the first time in my career .. today i feel i am not worth given the previous promotion. I wish i can go back to where I am before and stay at that level for good 5 years more for the sake of the experience and respect.

I don't like the way the bosses treated our work as second class work. Always complaining and labelling it as routine jobs. Okay if this is a routine job then why put it under officer’s job scope. Why not put it under clerks job scope. He always said we cannot be in just one level all the time we must cross board... bla bla . For 30 minutes of free lecture I had with him I only understand half of what he is saying. Menyesal. I rarely went to him for any advice because of this. I hardly understand what he want from me. Most of the time. Whenever he called us up for his “free lecture” as we call it. We will came out of the room more confuse than before. Huhu

It is hard for me to apply for transfer since I already turn down two transfer orders before but I hope he will transfer me out. I am not like his favourite officers who can sit around him for hours in the room smoking and chatting I don’t know what. I am not. I just did what in my job scope says quietly then I go back home. I don’t wish to be popular. I don’t wish for the top management to know me. I just wish what I do is justifying for the pay and all the allowances to be halal for me and my family.

You may say I am not an ambitious person. Whatever. Career is not my priority. I know my current job very well. It is not to serve the bosses but the people. The bosses can talk all day...mere talking..everyone can do that. But who will be question before god thereafter?
Exhausted. I don’t like people talking a lot. Kepala pusing tau. Menyampah. Talking history..you know it 2011 already?.. Not that I hate history. I love history very much. But I don’t like people talking history of himself “memperbesarkan diri” as if u know everything. Benci. Setakat cakap saja. Please tolong beri jalan penyelesaian boleh?. :P

FROM BEIRUT TO JERUSALEM by Ang Swee Chai

I first saw this book in Iryani's room during our University years..I think it was in the third year or final year.. but definitely after our industrial training. Actually she was the one who first introduce me to blogging and since then here I am still writing although not as frequent as before. huhu..

I think I saw this book on her study table, read the synopsis at the back of the book and was hoping someday i will have the time to borrow it from her and read it. but..hmmm.. the thought just disappeared to the back of my head as we were busy with final year project and stuff.

Now..after almost 6-7 years later, I found this book by accident. I was in MPH alamanda just killing my time while waiting (I couldn't remember whom I was waiting for ). I saw this book.. (I thought "wow, this book is about Palestine and the author is a chinese. Interesting"). Then it hit me that this is the same book that I saw a few years ago on Iryani's desk. I went straight to the cashier.

Approaching the big 1

I LEARN TO DRIVE...

I LEARN TO READ

and I HAVE TEETH

woohoooo..... but I still need to practice walking

Bila nak bercuti lagi..

CAK !!!!

Auntie Mira nak tengok gambar terbaru Irfan.. tapi Irfan malu-malu hahahahaha

Merry go round

So many things arise at work. Problems. things that have been done for a few years now need to be revised. They were found to have some errors that may compromise what we have been doing all these years. Jeng!!

It was not an easy task as it revolve around legal thing which I don't really master but I do have to take it verrryyyy seriously. It also involves and affects the procedures of several departments. Nice.

As I read and read ( where you know how dull law book can be) trying to find solutions I found more problems. hahahaha. Aiyo I really need to tackle one thing at a time. Better go and see Tuan Penasihat as soon as possible. The more I read and think, the more "merry go round " in my head. Now I know why many my x bosses have high blood pressure.. hihihi.

Come on dear. stay calm. take this as a challenge. you can do it!!

(Bila buku memoir Mahathir nak sampai ni. I need inspirations. Now.)

Some things have to wait

wah.. a month with no updates here.. huhu..
but many things did happen actually
and i didn't have time to actually sit still and write.

End of January Irfan was warded for 5 days. high fever and having fit (minor seizure) a couple of time. The first time was at home so we rush him to the hospital. It was such a hard time for me to see him on drip 24-7 and his blood was taken almost every day for some test. Remembering how he was crying and looked at me when the doctor try to put the needle for the drip.. aduhai berlubang-lubang anak I. susah nak masuk. I almost cried myself that I just waited outside.

After he was discharged, we went back to Kuching for almost a week. weehuu...

Then back to work till now.. Work is stressful as always but luckily I have penyejuk mata waiting at home. :D

Mejeng di Medan

Dani, Nabila and Nadia with Irfan at their house

Masjid Agung Medan

Merasa Nasi Uduk di tepi jalan . from left: nabila,me n husband

kereta kuda di Berastagi

Lunch

Thanks to Pakcik Dar, CheGam, Bonda Yang, Dani, Nadia, Nabila ,Bondan and Qemal, we had such a great holiday in Medan, Indonesia. Before this I was quite worried because we were suppose to spend 5 days in Medan and from what I search on the Internet there are not many tourist spot in Medan. There are only lake toba and Brastagi which are outside Medan.

My husband, Irfan and I accompanied by my parents and younger brother flew to Medan for our new year break. We have fun although most of the time spent was mostly on eating and shopping. The boys got to experience New Year celebration Medan style. Mejeng (lepaking I suppose) by the roadside where there was live bands performing and fireworks.

We also explored different taste of Indonesia such as melayu Padang, Minang and Acheh cuisine. Bonda Yang also went through all the trouble to prepare us dinner of Pliek U and Acheh Curry. We also have the chance to eat Nasi Uduk plus fried chicken or duck with special sauce (sambal).
Since it was new year holiday, our trip to Lake Toba was cancel due to unavailability of accomodation. Fully booked. To went up there on a day trip would be too exhausting and I don’t think it is wise since we have a baby with us. It will take 6 hour up plus 45 minutes of ferry ride to Pulau Samosir in the middle of the lake and another 45 minutes back to mainland and 6 hours down.

Instead we just went up to Brastagi on the 2nd Jan since we anticipate that the road would be clearer since everyone will be going down already. How we are wrong huhu.. The journey up which supposedly only one hour took about 4 hours and it was even worst when we went down at around 6pm. We arrived safely in TSB at midnight. ( Untung Irfan tidur, mummy dah risau bekalan susu tidak mencukupi).

Irfan was such a good boy. Throughout the journey, he will only cry if he is hungry or want to sleep. At most of the time he was calm even more if there are people who entertain him .

weeehuuu... missing Medan already. To those name mentioned above, thanks for letting us crashing in at your place, for driving us everywhere and even guiding us around for good stuff to buy plus bargaining.

next time .. gantian ya.. kamu semua pula ke sini.. :D

HO HO HO

The leaning tower of Teluk Intan

Irfan didn't want to smile. He was sleepy and really want to sleep. huhu

Inside the tower. The tower was actually holding a huge water tank for the town. The weight of the tank filled with water plus the soft ground it has been built on has caused the tower to lean a bit. Can u see above my head is the water tank. I don't think it is still in use.

Dinner with Y.A.B. PM

BEE

Busiest months since November. No weekend at home since 20 November. Woohoo

20-21 November – Irfan and Thaqif akikah in Kota Bharu, Kelantan
26-27 November - business meeting in Penang and visiting a friend in Arau, Perlis
4-5 Disember - cousin’s wedding in Ipoh, Perak and business dinner at PICC, Putrajaya on the 5th.
10-11 Disember – weddings at Teluk Intan, Perak and Nilai, Negeri Sembilan
17-18 Disember – business meeting in Melaka
24-25 Disember – nothing so far ..(back to Kota Bharu Kelantan maybe)
1-2 Januari 2011 – Medan, Indonesia.

So I’ll be off the radar for sometime ya.
Life is hectic and juggling with the hardest job yet the most fulfilling ever (being Irfan mummy of course) was sometimes very overwhelming and exhausting. Plus the neverending demand from the business.

This month, work was not fun. I get frustrated a few times. Melenting tahap nak makan orang tapi tak boleh then last2 duk diam dalam bilik. Tarik nafas dalam dalam and lastly I blame myself for all the problems. Geee aku memang tak pandai jadi bos. Susah. Benci. Aku rasa kecil di sini. Dan thos people pun agaknya nampak aku kecil di sini. Aku tak salahkan anak-anak buah aku. They are all very helpful and sangat bekerjasama. Cuma masalah sekarang ni aku.Kadang-kadang aku rasa macam aku kat satu bilik gelap yang banyak pintu. Tapi aku tak nampak pintu-pintu itu sebab aku buta. Tapi macam macam mana aku tau bilik itu gelap sedangkan aku buta? Haa itulah masalah aku sekarang.

A cousin wedding

before heading out to Shah alam for the akad nikah ceremony.

The top was actually a last minute purchase since i need to wear a white top for the ceremony.

In the month of October, there was a cousin wedding. A purple wedding, with great food and company. Despite the stress of anticipating the ptk, i still manage to enjoy the celebration. Family gathering .. full of laughter and chattering.

div>This was why i need to actually wear white and the sarong. I'm the dayang2 eh mak orang buleh kira dayang2 ke..mak inang..huhuhu

and this was at the reception.daddy with one of my cousins and mummy of course with Irfan

Congratulations Syed Mustafa and Siti Marliza.. May Allah bless you guys with a wonderful life ahead.

SWEET

Anak mummy nih baru nak belajar merangkak.. tak pandai duduk lagi.. tapi kalau dah pegi restoran, mummy ngan daddy of course nak makan. letak dalam stroller mengamuk nak keluar melainkan tidur.. alih-alih mintak baby seat.

Happy giler bila dapat duduk situ. siap tepuk-tepuk meja lagi.

anak mummy dah big boy... huhu

PTK terakhir abad Ini.

Sejak PM umumkan dalam budget 2011 bahawa PTK dimansuhkan , ramai yang sangat gumbira. Ye lah siapa suka dengan exam kan?. Tapi dalam gembira itu risau juga. Entah bagaimanalah pengganti PTK itu nanti. Jangan haraplah nak lepas tanpa ptk langsung. Kompem akan diganti dengan system lain punya. Ingat sesenang nak naik pangkat. Huhu .. Mesti ada penilaian punya. Setakat bodek-bodek… kipas-kipas bos :p takde ler..

Anyway yours truly and dear husband baru lepas PTK .Seminggu tu. Macam-macam ada. Ceramah, public speaking, pembentangan pengurusan kerja, pembentangan kerja kumpulan (ala-ala case study siap power point gitu) dan akhir sekali of course 2 exam bertulis.
Aku tang exam bertulis tuh kurang takutnyer walaupun tahu cover banyak giler( dari isu semasa rasuah jenayah dadah segala sampailah specific pasal pekeliling2 , kewangan, asset, pengurusan tanah, segala macam dasar kerajaan, urusan tanah.. macam2…so cemana nak baca?).. memang tak tau nak baca apa. Tapi sebab dia bertulis..tak takut sangat. Bukan objektif ABC yer adik adik.. soalan esei yang perlu dijawab secara analisa ok .
Yang sesi lain-lain tuh sebab kena bercakap. Gabra habis. Public speaking of course English without any visual aid.

Dan punya la aku stress pasal PTK nih sampai hari first tuh .. kena gastric pastuh macam demam seram sejuk takleh bangun. Dah kena MC separuh hari.. aduhai.

Tapi Alhamdulillah esoknya dah sihat and memandangkan bonda datang dari jauh temankan berjayalah aku n dear husband menjalani ptk itu dengan tenang. Semalam habis. Tak taulah macam mana hasil keputusannya.

Tolonglah lulus..

Oh lupa ada 2 assignment due lepas aidil adha.. haish

lepas tuh baru bleh ..tolong lah lulus. huhu