Blood+Sweat= Victory?

"Bukan ketakutan yang ada pada mereka
cuma kegelisahan kerana berwaspada pada segala kemungkinan."

Watched "300" with the gang last night..

Thick red blood splashing..
a wall of bodies piled up..
head cut off from the body..
killing .. mercilessly..

The spartan..
they were all ready to die..
they were born to fight..
They were destined to be a warior..
and they long for dying in war.. the beautiful death..

but what i admired the most is..
the calmness and wisdom of the King Leonidas..
the loyalty, determination and the courage that the "300" warrior had..
the cool war strategies they used..

They were tough..and smart..
despite the small numbers of warriors..
they were winning..
but traitors made them fall..
with pride and honour of course..
till the last breath..
fighting for their country and freedom..

and now I am having my second caffeine-fix to fight the drowsiness of my sleepy head..hehehe

u r not alone

"Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain drNya.
Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal. "
-Surah At-Taubah,ayat 129

ever had a feeling like being left alone??
no one to turn to??
heh..

deng..trying to get rid those feeling ..
i still had many friends around what??..
my pama just a phone call away what??

and the staff in the office kept asking me over n over..
twice yesterday.. once the day before..and another just now..
"Cik nolee..awat muka sedihh..je..?"
huhh.. yea..I was quite happy go lucky..
I like to go around in the office chit chatting with everyone..
I didn't realise that they can actually 'detect' the slight change in my mood..
even I ..didn't realise it..
I thought I was my usual self..

what happen really?..
I dunno..
weng..bengong bengong..

never mind..tommorrow is saturday..
going to have a nice heavy breakfast..
and a good rest and some good reading!!

urs truly need some retail therapy..anyone wanna accompany me to a shopping spree??????

it's a wonderful world

Yesterday was such a wonderful day ..
with a lunch and a dinner date with several long-time-no-see friends.

lunch with these few "the most busiest people"..hehe..
suddenly you hv some work in bangi eh?..
anyway nice to see y'all bro..

and dinner with primary school friends ..
Updating each other with our lives and other friends lives..
who has been married..who already hv sons and daughters..
who is getting married soon..engaged..bla bla bla..
and the cepumas Q again.."so when is urs??" ..
"what ?" i asked..wanna avoid it actually.. "you know".. "insyaAllah"
jeng..

then a friend suddenly blurted ..
" my friend ask me to introduce someone to him..and i only hv you in mind.."
uhuk uhuk uhuk...terseedak sedak akak..sib baik tak ramai org kat kedai tu semlm.
nasib baik masih di bawah kawalan..sempat lagi telan roti canai tu..jeng btul..
dunno what i should said to my dear friend ..so i just smile...
watever dear..I know you meant well..
haha..we'll see..


this was last week..in Langkawi.. FUN in da SUN!!

Where the path of life leads..I just stride along..
where the river flows..I just row my boat..
for everything have been written..by Allah the alMighty.

:D as usual it's monday blues..

i've been tagged

alaa sufi tagged aku ..
6 weirdos...byk tuh...
let's see if i can come up with 6 things i did or experience
which is weird..

1. hmm.. aku tidak pernah berambut panjang..ala-ala puntianak tu..the longest.. perhaps just a slight pass the shoulder..considering that i am a girl..i think that's weird enough..my hairstyle during schooldays were always short..like a boy..Once upon a time ( i think I was 9 yrs old) I had beenmistaken as the other son my father never have..eheh

2. Kalu sufi terus ngantuk lepas mandi..sebaliknya aku akan gatal-gatal selepas mandi..most of the time..lagi bersabun sakan..lagi aku gatal..It may because of the clorine content ..or it was just my sensitive skin.. hmm..

3. It was hard for me to marah-marah people.. although first impression people always tought that i was garang...but please ..don't even try to make me angry.. only god knows what I would do..

4. I always love to watch music n singing shows..on tv or live..but I've never been to a real concert..and i don't intend to.. i hate crowded places..

5. I have an elder bro, an elder sis, a younger bro, and a youngest sis.complete. Is that weird enough..? or rather blessed?..

6. As most people know that I like singing.. I even sang for competition during younger days.. and of course once during DPA.. but guess what..I've NEVER sang or actually performing solo in front of my parents..segan akak..nak nyanyi depan parents..ntah taktau nape..depan org ntah sape-sape boleh pulak ek..hehe

dah..cukup kot 6....

nk tagged saper yer..takde sape2 bleh?


thinking far away..(me at the TRADERS hotel KLCC.)

I discovered something while thinking what makes me weird..
I found several weaknesses.. some are big weaknesses..
I would rather keep it to myself..
I need to come up with a grand make over to overcome them
for I'll try to change my self..for the better of course..

tayar bergolek

isnin aritu aku pi amik tayar-tayarku di rumah makcik..
lega bila akhirnya mendapat tayar-tayar..
tidak lagi aku menyusahkan sahabat-sahabatku..
terutama bab-bab nak ke tempat kerja..
thanks a bunch guys.... especially my housemates and ofismates
owe u girls a lot..

also thanks to my pama for finally trusting me..
remember onetime my mama used to say that i drive the car like samseng jalan raya..
rasa bersalah pulak..
bukan niat meminta-minta..tapi memang keperluan mendesak..
sampaikan siap hantar sms "s.o.s" to papa..hihi
and how quick the rescue response is..
terus utusan di hantar ke rumah makcik..
sepantas kilat..ngesh ngesh..
thanks bro..
:D

ps to pama:
..belum begitu mahir adik menggelek tayar-tayar itu..
lagi pulak belum kenal baik dengan lorong-lorong di sini..
dun worry though..adik bertatih dulu...

urs truly merenung hujan mengalir di cermin tingkap.. ingat..tuhan beri apa yang kita perlukan..di waktu kita memerlukan..

Rancangan Tuhan

Allah menghapuskan apa jua yang dikehendaki-Nya dan ia juga menetapkan apa jua yang dikehendaki-Nya. Dan (ingatlah) pada sisi-Nya ada ibu segala suratan
-surah Ar Ra'd ayat 13

kita hanya merancang..tapi tuhan yang menentukan..
kita perlu usaha ..pasti tuhan membantu
kita hanya berdoa.. kerna tuhan Maha Mengasihani
kita perlu redha.. kerna tuhan Maha mengetahui

kadang-kadang keliru dengan perjalanan hidup..
kadang-kadang tersungkur di tengah jalan..
kadang-kadang merangkak tidak berdaya..
kadang-kadang bertatih.. setapak-setapak..

namun tiada gusar..
bumi tuhan terbentang luas..
awan tinggi di dada langit..
pasti ada bunga kembang mengharum..
akan ada pelangi berseri..
selagi ada harapan..
itu makna kehidupan..

urs truly sentiasa berharap hidup hati tenang dan senang..

UTPian

aku browse2 emel..spring cleaning..wanna get rid those old mails..
suddenly jupe this forwarded mail from alumniyahoogroup..tetiba rasa nak share..dejavu..hahaha

Anda memang UTPian kalau... <-edited from acan's message: 1) Anda faham apa itu MAS, mIrc, ym, CS danDOTA...hehe yang lain aku tau ..but DOTA??

2)Anda selalu terlupa nak switch off comp selama2-3 hari..
bukan lupa..memang sengaja..kalau tak kerana power box blow time blackout..mmg tak penah tutup..hehe

3) Anda asyik terserempak dengan orang yangsama tapi tidak dikenali hampir tiap-tiap hari...
memang..kalu dah pusing2..baper kerat sgt nyer dak utp tuh..muka mmg kenal..tapi nama maap tak tau..esp junior..

4) Anda pernah makan kat cafe USM...
hehe..yes! kalu makan western definitely kat USM..mesti orang pelik pehal cafe USM wat kat dalam UTP..

5) Anda tahu betapa hampehnya server di seluruhUTP...
ermm..kire oraitelaa..

6) Anda kenal Ustaz Dawi
haah

7) Jaya Jusco (JJ) menjadi tempat paling pentingdalam hidup anda...
haha..cam kedai runcit jer..tetiap minggu pun nk pi situ..

8) IP dan JJ sudah menjadi satu kebiasaan ataukemestian bagi anda..
JJ yes..tapi IP..kalau nak cr kuih dorayaki..doraemon..ape mende dah nama kuih tuh?

9) Anda sudah rasa bosan dgn IP dan JJ.
well..

10) Anda sudah biasa tido pukul 5 pagi atau lepas subuh sebab chatting, main games, wat report etc.(atau tak tido langsung selama 2 hari)
bulan puasa definitely tido lepas subuh..time final year..penah wat tak tido 2-3 hari ..

11) Anda tidak boleh hidup tanpa pc/laptop &internet.
ooo yes...mati kutu takde pc..

12) Anda akan tertanya-tanya.."bla la dorang naktaruh anime/muvi baru kat mirc?..." hmm...
yerp..

13) Anda boleh mengalami depression kalausehari tak bukak pc/laptop especially time takdeelektrik.
takde laa sampai depress..tp... agak down jugelaa..hahaha

14) Anda pernah rasa nak bom ITMS unit...
takde sampai nak bom..tapi bengang gak aaa....

15) Anda selalu stadi last minute... (ish3)
ermm...hihihi

16) Anda rasa sukar utk decide utk makan katmana mlm ni...
yerp..rimba ada ...gelas besar ada..v4 ada ..v3 ada..tak pun pi jer makan seafood kt lumut..nyummm

17) Anda selalu teruja dengan gadis² uitm
<- yeke? u guys teruja ke?...

18) Anda pernah guna komputer kat IRC
penah laa..

19) Anda pernah beli barang kat KOPETro v4..
of course......seme pun beli kat kopetro..

20) Playlist MP3 anda lebih dari 300 lagu.. tu taktermasuk yg takde dlm playlist lg tu..
yesss..huhu..tapi seme tu ilang ..bile komputer ku jahanam.. the first month wat balik umah..haha

21) Anda rasa MIRC sudah menjadi medium komunikasi yang utama.. kadang2, meeting group projek pun kat MIRC jek..
haah..meeting assignment..meeting kelab..dating..bergaduh..balas pantun..main kuiz.. seme pun kat IRC..

22) Anda sudah biasa balik rumah lewat malam atau awal pagi..
balik rumah mana?..rumah dalam utp?..kalau dah keluar supper..memang laa..takpun kalu baru sampai dari kg ..memang sampai subuh..

23) Anda ada kawan-kawan di KTJ
<- KTJ ni apa ek?

24) Anda pernah pegi ke JE atau
JE?
25) Anda tidak pernah jejak langsung JE.. pelik..
ntah laa..

26) Anda selalu terserempak dengan budak2 UTPdalam cinema..especially hari rabu & weekend
memang dah..walaupun aku sebenarnya ..boleh kira berapa kali jer aku pi cinema time duk utp..malass

27) Anda rase UTP terletak di pesisir gurunsahara
hahahaha...esp kalu jalan kaki merentasi tanah gersang dari pintu pagar besar wat theorem pithagoras nak ke etana metana..

28) Anda masih boleh online sehingga pukul 10.05 walaupun kelas start pukul 10.
haha ..damn true..tak pun sambil2 lab..

29) Anda boleh jer tido masa gap antara kelas
ooo...sangat laa boleh..tak kire..

30) Anda tahu IRC selalu penuh time stadiweek, tp anda tetap akan ke situ.. (aku tak!)
memang penuh..tapi kan..aku jrg~~~~~ pi IRC..bole kira time pi library tuh..

31) Anda tertanya-tanya artis mana lak akandijemput time konvo nanti
takdelaa tertanyer2 ..tapi frust gak time konvo aku..ade KRU tapi aku kene rush balik..takle join konsert tuh..

32) Ada antara x-senior UTP anda bekerja diUTP..
huhu no komen..rezeki masing2..

33) Anda selalu skip kelas awal pagi atau lewatpetang =D
hahaha...btul

34) Anda sehabis boleh tak nak ada kelas hariJumaat ngan Isnin
yer aaa...kurang2 dapat extra satu hari cuti..biar laa ari lain tuh pack macam ape pun..

35) Anda nervous masa last week semesterbreak..
(result xm kuar)

36) Anda pernah fikir untuk quit dari UTP..
penah gak..

37) Anda rasa rindu dgn mirc di UTP masa cuti..
mungkin dah terbiasa hidup ngan mirc tuh..

38) Anda tertanya-tanya apa fungsi matrix card selain dari diguna kat library & time nak masuk
haha..yer...n

39) Anda rasa U lain tak perlu nyanyi lagu PETRONAS..
u lain ..bkn under petronas mmg laa..wahaha..PETRONAS maju jaya kebanggaan negara kita..lalalalala
hihi

40) Bila anda pergi ke KLCC, ramai sgt muka2 familiar yg dpt dilihat time lunch.
haha memang..tu kdg2 mcm malas pi klcc..kuang-kuang poyo.. cam laa derang kenal aku pun..hihi


urs truly..terkenang memori di tanah gersang...

fresh air??

arrghh..this newly installed air-freshener make me dizzy....wengg.
I was just relieved that finally my headache had gone yesterday..
and because of this so called air freshener the pain creeping up again..duhh..

sape rasa benda alah ni wangi..tulonn..
dahler bilik opis aku ni sempit..pi letak satu plak bende alah tuh..
kalu kat luar tu ok laa.. luas..ini setakat bilik aku duk sensorang..
jeng btul..mabuk sehhh...

letak tinggi2 lak tuh..saje takmau kasi aku cabut buang laa tuh..
huhhh..siap ko bile sume org balik nti..

lagi cerita makan..

Semalam aku buat rekod diri sendiri..
mengunjungi 3 kedai makan dalam masa 4 jam...

6.30 pm:
as usual balik dari ofis..aku n ain singgah makan di kedai mamak dekat rumah..
both of us had maggi goreng n drink..

around 9pm:
we went out again temankan syikin dinner..
this time dkt Restoran Balang..
i had keropok n roti pisang..plus drink..

around 10.30:
as we were on our way home..
abg zzz and his wife want to meet us at Restoren YUss..
so we went there.. i had teh tarik..
and a nice chit chat with the newly wed couple..
also receive a call from "the most busiest people" i've known so far..haha..
call dari ofis lak tuh.. :p

was back at home around midnight ..(cewah gaya cam weekend) ..
and ZZZZZZZZZZ

this morning ..i arrived in the office earlier than usual..
the staff was quite suprise..
they tought there were urgent files need to be settled today..hehe
nope dear..saje-saje jer..

need ActiveFast..

I hv three days to finish up my work..
the 'KLCC" in my office getting taller..
need to finish up all of it before going outstation this thursday..

and

I hv been having this constant headache for three days..
since saturday..even paracetamol can't kill the pain..
I've burned my weekend with neverending sleeping..
waking up just for eating n praying.,.
i guess it was due to my poor eyesight..it's getting worst..
need to change my lenses..

huhu

makan utk hidup atau hidup utk makan?

Semalam aku mimpi makan nasi kerabu..
hari ini ingatkan dapatlah sarapan nasi kerabu..
selalu ari jumaat my mum masak nasi kerabu..tak pun beli kat pasar..
nyumm
(home sick ke aku nih..isk..)

so this morning
sahabatku bawak aku ke satu kedai ini..
kawasan sekitar kampung mahmud baginda(tak silap aku laa)..
kat situ ada kedai nasi kerabu..sedap..
tapi masa kitorang pegi..takde..
rupanya makcik tu dah pindah kedai depan sikit..
takpe lah ..takde rezeki..
so aku makan roti canai telur..pelik jugak..sbb ada bawang n cili..
selalu telur jer..hihi ..argghh belasah..sedap pe..
aku makan laju jer..

anyway thanks to sahabat-sahabatku yang bawak aku kat situ..
janji makan..
aku tak kisah jer.. not fussy bout food..
but very upset kalu takbleh makan..haha

mira n ain tau sgt perangai aku yang satu ini..hihi
tak gitu mira (* wink..)

urs truly definitely makan utk hidup.. nanti gastrik sape yang susah??..hihi

way back into love

watched Music n Lyrics last night..
i love this song more than the movie..
hehe

a friend said i was "jiwang"..
tau takpe..
:P

here goes the lyrics..

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere (*wink)

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end