percayalah

"sebabnya kamu ni susah nak percayakan orang.."

my senior officer said when he commented bout me being single..huh..

that was when i can't come out wif the reasons of me being single.

I dunno..maybe i just don't bother ..

maybe i'm just too bz wif me..

maybe it's true what he said..
after serious thinking i think it's true..

what he said..

is it good or is it bad..i dunno

if it is bad..

then there is something I need to change..

or else..let it be..

things happen

when it is time..

when it is fated..

awat laa aku akhir-akhir ni macam-macam penyakit..
semalam aku tak makan satu hari..
ingatkan ok laa kot..
balik umah lam kul 7 lebih ptg dari opiss..
sakit kepala sesangat..maybe sebab mata penat..
pastuh dah makan-makan..bukak contact lense seme
(aku pakai contact pn sbb smlm pakai spek cam dah weng2.)
thought the pain would ease a bit..
hmm..tak kurang jugak..
so ingat tido awal laa..sebab dah pening sangat..makan pun cam nak keluar balik..
sekali bangun pagi nih..tak kurang-kurang jugak..
ok..angin kot..i'm going to hv a heavy bekpes today..
so aku bantai laa pulut kuning my boss bawak..
ok laa sikit..pastuh dapat peluang lak keluar dengan arahan..
stended keje aku lar.."sesi kejar-mengejar"..
sempat la lelap sat dlm kete sementara nak sampai kl tuh..
pi kejar ramai2..bleh laa lelap..
kalu pi kejar sorang ..mampus aku kalut..*
hehe

ini ptg takde kejar-kejar dah kot..hope can settle a few things ptg nih..


*u hv to know me in order to know who yang i kejar..

Pelik bezanya

pelik..

aku rasa pelik..

atau perasaan ku pelik?..

atau aku dalam keadaan yang pelik?

atau aku nampak orang pelik?
....

berbeza..

aku yang rasa bezanya..

atau aku sudah berbeza..

atau aku nampak orang yang berbeza..
...

apa lainnya pelik dan berbeza?

berbeza mungkin bukan pelik..

tapi pelik juga mungkin tidak berbeza..

tapi beza bukankah bila kita pelik dari orang lain

cuma pelik adalah bila orang tidak biasa dengan beza..

biarlah pelik..

biar berbeza..

asal kita dan tuhan tahu bezanya..

pelik itu..

hari ni

hari nih sah kompem aku dah kene selesema..ini laa bahana tak cukup rehat..
stress tak tentu pasal and berjalan jauh ..kata orang bertukar angin..
bulan ni 2 kali aku makan angin..
pi negeri bawah bayu and selatan semenanjung dalam selang masa tak sampai seminggu..huhu..

owh ..2 hari lepas aku pi johor tuh melawat salah satu penjara & pusat pemulihan akhlak kat situ...condition?..hmm..what else to say..
what do you expect? dh namanya penjara..tapi kira ok laa..esp part blok perempuan..agak bersih..
perasaan aku..a day in the jail..ermm..ntah..takde perasaan kot..
or i just simply menidak-adakan perasaan..aku tak berani nk pandang banduan-banduan tuh..

tapi aku salute part kerja pertukangan yang derang buat..especially pertukangan kayu..cantik2..
teringin lak nak angkut satu meja balik umah..they said we can purchase the products at Kajang jail..
so jom ramai-ramai..bagi sokongan kepada banduan yang belajar skill-skill ini untuk mengubah nasib bila keluar nanti..

malam sebelum lawatan ada dinner bersama pegawai-pegawai penjara..
superb dinner..kenyang beb..ada karaoke plak..aku bantai 3 lagu..dah lama tak me"nyumbang"kan suara nih..

benci tapi rindu original version by diana nasuton
jgn ada dusta original version by dewi yull and broery (duet wif staff penjara)
dua insan original version by m nasir and yunizar hussein (duet wif my colleague)

pastuh tgk m*d blaja main snooker..sempat gak derang nih blajar..masuk 1-2 ok laa..
hehe
it was a fun trip though quite tiring..sebab masa yang terhad..

arghh ..hari ni pagi-pagi lagi aku dah pening..salah bantal agaknya
(bantal jugak yg disalahkan)..
tapi 2-3 hari ni memang aku "tertekan" sikit..hehe..
mungkin jugak sebab nak sesuaikan diri dengan gaya kerja unit baru..
atau mungkin sebab aku salah makan
(terlebih makan atau tak cukup makan)*
mungkin jugak sudah kurang aktiviti fizikal yang dilakukan..
(malas btul nak jogging..)

bila dah tertekan mula laa cepat emosi kan?
orang wat hal sikit rasa cam sakit hati
tengok orang manja2 ngan family teringat dah lama tak balik..
wahaha

tapi nasib laa aku leh kawal lagi amarah ku..hihi
pendam dalam2..sbb bagi aku orang yang kuat ialah bila marah dia bersabar..

hal keje ni plak..aku blum pandai lagi nak "switch off" bab keje bila balik umah..
mesti teringat-ingat ..
selagi tak siap..lagi tu aku duk ingat-ingat..
pastuh mula laa takleh tidur

anyway..ptg ni ada lawatan kerja ke Johor..yeay..
jalan2..harap aku leh de-stress..


*nasi lemak+ayam goreng rempah+mini burger+teh tarik+nescafe for breakfast today

END OF DPA

hallo again

woww..akhirnya dapat gak luangkan masa menulis..
akhirnya berakhir juga kursus dpa..
terasa cepat pulak masa berlalu...especially when we are having a good time..
dah seminggu lebih dah checked out from INTAN
back in the office.. "welcome back " said most of the staff..
"welcome home" said some..
duhh..must we make our office feel like home..maybe..
since dah abih kursus..bermula laa cabaran sebenar..aritu baru kasi sikit2..
kali ni bagi kerja real punya..
bertanding balik lewat lak gayanya kiterang..
"sapa kate keje gomen bleh balik awal??"kate member aku..hehehe
aku no komen..dah situ rezeki ko..buat laa sehabis baik..yer dakk..

byk nak sambung cite sal dpa..nanti leh start "DPA da flash back"..

to those who make my life in INTAN..
meaningful..
memorable..
cheerful..
FUNNNNN...
thanx a lot... esp syikin dan abj nya

and also to those who make it
awful..
terrible..
HATE..
thanx also

cause everything and every moment is MEANINGFUL and MEMORABLE
esp 300++ wonderful friends who are like brothers and sisters!!

khabar dari DPA II

I was scanning the pics we took during the army modul..so sambil2 tu kita citer2 yer..


location:Pusat latihan tempur tentera darat, Ulu Tiram, Johor
duration:1 week

Modul tentera ini merupakan salah satu daripada modul-modul yang entah berapa dalam DPA and i was told this was among the toughest selain dari OBS(outbound school lumut..aku cuak gak yang nih..kat laut beb..gerun..). So pada pagi ahad yang bersejarah itu berkumpullah kiterang 2 sidang..satu akan ke modul polis dan satu ke modul tentera kat depan auditorium pepagi about 8am. maka bergemalah lagu Negaraku dan lagu rasmi DPA dgn penuh semangat(dalam hati excited tapi berdebar tak ingatnye lah..). Kat dalam bas punyalah semua melayan perasaan..sebab masing2 dah dgr bermacam citer yang 'menggerunkan' pasal modul tentera nih. sampai di pulada around 2 terus derang bawak pi mess utk lunch.Obviouslly i have no comment bout food throughout the stay.It was great.bila dibawa ke padang kawad lak dah nampak tentera2 ni dah tunggu2 kiterang (adeh cuak2..takut gak..maunya garang2). They were introduced to us as our instructors..dari pelbagai pangkat..and after that they distributed the kelengkapan yg kiterang perlukan like bags,mess tin etc.After futher instruction berlari-larilah kiterang dgn beg2 ke dormitory utk bersiap ke aktiviti seterusnya..hehe..bermula hidup kami sbg tentera walaupun what we were about to experience is just i would say merely 5-10 % of what the army faced in their services.


I will only highlight those experience that i found interesting or teach me something.I can't tell all here .It will spoilt the suprises for those who is going for it in a few days ahead hehe.

sideroll
i will never ever forget this.It was kinda guling2 ala hindustan but from a rugby goalpost to another end.I would say it was about 100 m. (belum buat ..rasa cam gilerr..tapi bila dah buat..I sure learnt something..)Bila dah sampai hujung i was trying to stand up and i saw the goalpost turn upsidedown...semua isi perut keluar..hampir semua org berjaya 'mencuci perut' masing..and the blues stayed on till the next morning..kuat giler penangan sideroll..

trak 3 tan
Inilah pengangkutan kiterang sepanjang kat situ ..ada 1 insiden..a girl tersalah 'mendarat' dgn satu kaki waktu terjun trak menyebab dia dihantar pulang..otot terkoyak or something i'm not sure..but after a few up n down the truck, we the girls surely dh sendirinye expert naik turun although when we were wearing our heels n baju kurung especially during night lectures.

m16
Ini adalah senjata yang mana kami diajar cara2 membuka,mencuci dan menggunakan dengan betul..malah seharian bersama-samanya..kemana sahaja.. semasa bermalam di dalam hutan untuk misi 'ambush'. Seberat 2.9kg ..well it was heavy enough for me..mengigil2 waktu menembak secara berdiri kat lapang sasar..abih ntah kemana aku tembak..tapi kalau meniarap it was a bit easy ..maybe because you can rest your elbow atas tanah..well cara meniarap and berdiri pun ada teknik2 tertentu.. I got only 9/20 oklaa for beginner kan?. .

pumping n squat jump
this two were like biasa ajer.. apahal sikit mesti kena..either sebagai denda atau exercise.no complaints..it was good untuk kekuatan tangan dan kaki..hehe

a day in the woods(byk aktiviti time nih)
Kiterang bermalam satu malam di hutan..sebelum itu waktu petangnya ada pelbagai briefing kiterang dapat dari pelbagai kor yang ada dalam tentera..pasal anjing perang..cara survival dihutan(apaleh mkn takleh makan)..permasalahan ibadat semasa perang(paling interesting fasal sembahyang sambil berjalan n ambik wuduk tanpa bukak boots) ..explosives n flares..macam2 lagilah even they hidang to us..ular,biawak,ayam hutan and ubi ..seme dibakar n ada yang dibuat sup masak dlm buluh..also air tongkat ali and air kembang semangkuk.(yang mana tak was-was tu rasalah all that..aku pegang2 jer..niat nk merasa tapi huhu takle aa..mkn ayam ubi n air tu jer..very refreshing)


and during the night kiterang ada kunun2 misi ambush it was about midnight..2 jam beb meniarap kat lam semak tepi jln yng dikatakan kunun2 kalu zaman komunis laluan derang la..we all meniarap..aiming the gun..trying hard not to think bout the nyamuks and the merayap2 thing or dozz off..it was dark..you only saw shadows coz bulan terang..tunggu arahan ..and when we saw kelibat orang..and heard the orders..tumm!!gunshots break the silence ..huhu cam movie laks..alaa peluru kapur jer..

back to our camp..we set it up before it was dark..and it look like the army campsite..like what we saw in sarjan hassan movie..huhu not the same camping style that we had in bukit cherakah before..btul2 rasa cam lam filem sarjan hassan laks..dahlaa asyik duk pikul senjata kesana kemari.

anikulasi tempur (not sure if the term was correct)
this was the only time we surely feel the real situation of warzone or medan tempur.. we had to crawl dr kubu. and they all shot life bullet..toing2 right above ur head..tak brani eden nk ngangkat kapla..apalagi buntut..kih kih.. tak cukup dibomnyalagi..memancut air dr kolam sebelah membanjiri we all who were trying hard to crawl as fast as we can..we were so down on the ground that i could feel the ground shaking when the explosives went off. abih seme yang mana luka2 kat siku..lebam kat lutut..tak heran dah yang penting need to crawl till the end..menistis airmata sekalipun..

Well actually ada banyak lagi..in fact seme exercise yang dibuat sememang nya betul2 membuka mata kami kepada perkhidmatan anggota tentera..i mean really it opened our eyes..Before this we only heard stories..saw the demos..saw military from the outside..but now at least we had the glimpse of what they did..how they become who they are..and the rationale for what they had to do..It gave us the opportunity to feel what might be what they felt..


gunung panti yang kiterang daki..

after one week experience as army personnel..i would only say these..

the sickness..
the exhausted moments..
the wounds..
the countless tears..
the sweat..
the falls..
the smells..
We took it as souvenirs from pulada

but what we will remember the most are
the shared story..
the skills taught..
the lessons learnt..
the friendships..
the experience once in a lifetime..

and we will miss
the laughters..
the jokes..
the celoreng..
the m16..
gunung panti..
the pumping and squat jumps...n of course the trucks..huhu



thank you to all the instructors n pulada..
only god shall pay your contribution

Khabar dari DPA

I've said i'll try to post sumthing while i'm away.. hehe
so here it goes..

kursus DPA mula 3 januari..pendaftaran cam biasa..except for this one it started so early in the morning..8.30 am unlike PAC or even lapor diri where you have a longer time to register which was till 11 am.Well it seems that everyone was either on time or early..hehe because when we (syikin, mid n me) arrived, the parking was already full of cars.The best part is after the registration we r not allowed to bring our cars up( I mean up the hill...that's why they call it mont kiara..memang berbukit2 pun..haha) to the hostel..only the official INTAN buses are allowed..so apalagi..angkut beb..segala tong peti kayu besi ( i mean the bags..exaggerating skit..)seme angkut naik bas.. sampai laa kat atas ..mahligaiku selama 6 bulan ini..huhu..

yang berat ditarik..
yang bertali dipikul..
yang ringan dibimbit..
yang kecil dimasuk poket..hehe
itulah ibaratnya gaya semua orang menyelesaikan masalah luggage utk dibawa kebilik masing2..5 tingkat beb..

yang pasti all of us have to get ready ..coz after lunch we all will went for a trip(trip ke..cam camping jer) to taman pertanian bt cahaya..or senangnye kat bt cherakah..
(yeehaa..dalam ati rasa cam best gak..dh lama tak camping..last was like 4 -5 yrs ago) sampai jer sana..ati aku lega..khemah dah siap2 pasang upanya..baguslah..kalu dipikir2 jenuh gak nk pasang khemah b4 gelap since sampai sana pun dh ptg..kalu terrer takpe gak.. maka bermula laa episod masak2.. actually b4 bertolak kiterang sme dh dibagi2 grup ..n ahli khemah memasing..ada laa ketua2 n ajk2 nyer..
every grup was given several mess tin (betul ke ejaan aku nih?..help anyone..) ,vegetables.., marinated fishes and several either items for cooking..
maka berusahalah kiterang menghidupkan api dalam keadaan tanah yang agak lembap..siaplaa sayur campur .. n ikan bakar.. tapi seme dikumpulkan dekat 'centralised kitchen' ...maka bercampurlah masakan kiterang dgn masakan grup2 lain...itulah makanan kiterang dinner..best jugak..walaupun masak ala2 'campak2 tuang kacau' hehe
malam tuh pas dinner adalaa persembahan skit every grup..biaselaa.. right b4 midnight bermulalah cabaran pertama.."nightwalk into the woods" huhu ..aku dah pernah kena sekali waktu sekolah..sengsorang..
this time in grup ramai2 kurang skit rasa takut tuh..lagipun bulan yg cerah..btul2 macam memahami hati aku..haha
sesuai dgn nama modul n objektifnya utk pembentukan kumpulan ..nightwalk betul memenuhi kehendak modul..
ia memberi peserta ruang ice breaking..
yer laa walaupun dah kenal..tapi jarak masa 3 bulan tak bersua.. sudah sifat manusia mudah lupa..
sifat bantu-membantu was really crucial
.. in darkness ..you really have to depends to those in front of you to give guidance and help you through..
setiakawan..
sentiasa ingat kawan dibelakang...
percaya pada ketua
..seriously ..dalam masa nightwalk tu..you really give your full trust to the leader..waktu itu jalan hanya di guide dgn tali..if ur leader tarsasar dari tali..tersasar jugalaa kita2 yang kat belakang tuh..
pengorbanan pemimpin..
sesiapa yang jadi leader kumpulan pada malam itu mmg mencabar..sudahlaa tanggungjawab besar bawak anak2 buah supaya tak tersesat..ketua juga adalah yang didepan sekali..dialah orang yang pertama yang akan tersepak tunggul dan jatuh..atau terkena pokok berduri..atau terjerlus dalam lumpur atau perlu memanjat tanah licinn...sebelum amaran diberikan kepada ahli2 dibelakang.. kita di belakang selamat..sempat melangkah tunggul..mengelak pokok berduri..atau ditarik ketika tanah tinggi licin.. terima kasih ketua..hehe
selain itu..ada kaitan dengan komunikasi..
dalam konteks ini satu cabang komunikasi telah hilang..sbb anda tidak dpt melihat..gelap.. so you will use ur other senses.. you will listen carefully for instructions( like "depan ada tunggul.. papan titi belah kanan ada lubang"), you touch (pegang2 tali..) ..smells..(selagi ada bau perfume member kt depan..ok laa tu) dan lain2..

itu antara summary yg aku dpt dari resolusi atau post mortem aktiviti itu keesokkannya..hehe
but the best thing i learnt is
when we are in a group,
there will always be somebody for you to rely on..
when you fall ..there will be hands to pull you up..
when you can't see..there'll be hand holding yours to the right path ..

sehari semalam jer kat bt cherakah esoknya..dah balik mahligai dah..n bermula laa sesi akademik(malaslaa nak citer modul akademik bende bese..lecture assignement..exam cuma the thing that you learn is different).. kemudian raya haji(first time raya aku tak balik woo)..kemudian sesi akademik lagi..sebelum sidang ku( dh terbubar grup kt cherakah..we all dibagi 4 grup..called sidang) berangkat ke modul tentera..among the toughest modul..

nantilaa aku cite..esok..ngantuk plak..

happy new year!!!

received a lot of new year messages..thanx to all..happy new year to you too!!

among the messages..

earliest at 7.24 pm 31st dec from micai
before d lines get jammed tonite, i'd better wish u a happy new yr now! May all ur resolutions be fulfilled n not be brought fwd d following yr..Cheers :

at 10 43 pm 31st dec from rem
Selamat tahun br 2006.May this incoming new year will be better than b4 and may all dream comes true.


!st Jan 2006

from fisya
27 28 29 30 31 /*****Bang***** Happy new year 2006 *****/

from dila
before the year ends..before the battery goes dead..before the operators are busy..before the sms get jammed..Wish u all the best & BLESSED NEW YEAR 2006!!!

from kak nas
kak nas ucap selamat tahun baru moga 2006 memberi kebahagian

from wan
pantun cina :)
hali busat sula mali..beli alak satu loli..satu tawun satu kali..wa ada mikin silap ini tahun..wa vely soli..
SELAMAT TAHUN BARU 2006

the message yang aku rasa paling best is..

from midi
We happen to remember that we'r older n wiser, n should do better from 2moro onwards.The exact thing we should do every day anyway.Happy 2006.Space n time are not absolutes

aku dh nak fly back to kl this evening..huhu..enough of speedy internet connection..haha..esok dh masuk dpa..
see ya!!

semalam my parents and i along wif my younger brother and sister went for a short trip to cameron highland..sesaje nak test jalan yang dikatakan baru tu..from gua musang ..to lojing highlands and cameron highlands..

9.00am I went to the market wif my mother..alaa beli brg2 dapur ler...back nearly at 10 am..
makan2 bekpes seme..

11.00am my father simply ..."jom pegi" actually at that time my siblings and i tak tau nk p mana pun tp we all just jump into the car..haha

about 2.00 pm stop at R&R Gua musang for a quick lunch..nasi wif sup tulang..

and at 5.00 pm arrive in cameron highland..cool .. had a goreng ubi panas wif teh tarik at brinchang.. singgah masjid for praying..saw a proton wif UTP sticker..but didn't manage to see the driver..huh..pusing2 sikit..ada self plucking strawberry park.. ada honey bee park.. ladang sayur mmg byk laa..the butterflypark pun ada lagi..hihi..
actually dh penah datang dulu masa aku kecik2..lam darjah 3 ke 4.. nice to see something yang aku still remember.. time dulu kiterang datang melawat YAKIN tea..anak syarikat yayasan kelantan...

around 5.30 pm headed down home..

7.00pm stopped again at R&R gua musang for dinner and pray

10.30pm arrived home

huhuhu...i never imagined we would made a single day journey to cameron highland..haha..
my younger brother and sister,,dah pening2..kih kih..tapi aku mantain..maybe sbb akhir2 ini aku dh selalu travel..so cam dah tak heran...haha.. aku penah wat single day journey kb-lumut-kb...cameron is nearer than lumut..so takde hal lah.. :D

I'm sure some of you noticed that this is the 3rd post for today..hehe..
have to utilised the internet connection, free time and the comfort of home to the max since i am back at my hometown and taking a break from work..

ssonok balik...main2 ngan my nephews..(pics below)




next year or precisely..next week i'll be away for a 6 months course ..DPA .. the compulsary course for all PTDs in order to confirmed our post.urs truly need to be prepared mentally and physically for the course hehehe..

hopefully i'll manage to write my experience during the dpa to share here..hopefully..
so just wait and see..

any new year resolution??...hmm i just hope i'll be a better person generally..a better muslim.. a grateful daughter.. a loving aunty..a caring friend..a good and productive PTD..a nice colleaque..
yeah everyone is praying for the better future.. so as i soar high to the sky i hope i'll always remember the green grass below..

a few more photos at PD


wif mid during one of the session


urs truly(grey shirt) wif dila tying shoelaces..we need to make the longest sraight line using wateva we had around..our group won!!hehe


dinner..barbeque..


thanks to cik mid n en azuan for all of the pics..

PENANG

on the 15th, i went to Penang for an annual games between the ministry with its counterpart from Singapore.

15/12/2005
7.30 am arrive at the office. I was supposed to go to penang along with a few other officemates using the dept's new CRV.(tehehe..kete baru seh)..
9.00 am depart a bit delayed since we need to get all the secretariats stuff loaded into the cars.
2.00 pm arrived in equatorial hotel..met my boss..we had a meeting wif the hotel..and singapore representative to ensure all the delegates accomodations and the programme runs smoothly
I hang around at the hotel lobby until about 6.00 pm to make sure everyone arrived and check in as per what have been decided.
8.00pm had a secretariat meeting
after the meeting i 'lepak' ed at fisha's room..chit chatting wif Pn.P.. we ordered pizza ..
about 1 am I went back to my room n bzzzzzzz

16/12/2005
after breakfast ..we had a meeting till about 10 am..
and than waiting again at the lobby for all the VIPs to arrive .. till evening..
7.15 pm dinner hosted by the penang state government at a hotel(oopss forgot the name)
but it is by the sea side..and had a nice view of Penang bridge..
urs trully enjoyed the food..and also enjoyed chit chatting wif the singaporeans..

17/12/2005
day of the games..urs truly didn't joined any game so as no task assigned for today, i decided to joined fisha accompanying the spouses for a penang tour..
went to a batik factory..agro farm..chow ras tar (correct me if the spelling is wrong) and then to the police jetty..joining those went for a boat tour around the islandfor a high-tea.
8.00 pm dinner.. once again urs trully enjoyed the food..hehe...

18/12/2005
all the delegates flew back.. went to pekena nasi kandar wif my boss.. and then jalan2 at bukit jambul..and then headed back to putrajaya at about 5.00 pm

urs truly is still waiting the pics from fisha..will upload it here as soon as i get it.

Personaliti Dan Binatang Dedah Rahsia Diri

Jun 04-14 ~ Kura-kura
Kura-kura:
Kamu semakin hampir dengan kesempurnaan dan begitu baik hati. Kebaikan kamu akan sentiasa dikenang orang sekeliling kamu. Kamu sukakan kedamaian, sekiranya teman-teman ada menyakiti hati kamu, kamu tidak akan cuba menyakitkan hati mereka pula. Kerana ini, kamu memang disayangi dan disenangi teman-teman. Kamu juga tidak suka cakap belakang dan orang sekelilingmu begitu senang dengan cara kamu melayan mereka. Kamu sentiasa akan memberi kasih sayang dan tidak pernah mengharapkan balasan. Pemurah juga adalah sikap kamu dan kamu sentiasa melihat kehidupan sebagai latihan praktikal.

semoga aku menjadi seperti yg dikatakan itu..hehehe HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

went to PD last 2 weeks for a course organized by my division.Generally i had fun.It gave us, the new officers the opportunity to get to know all the staffs. Don't really had time to talk much wif each other before, since everyone was busy wif work back in office.

the BBQ night was also fun wif karaoke session. The guys really sang their heart out..huhu..
I sang 2 songs.one a solo ,lyrics below.and another song a duet wif one of the senior officers, "jeling-jeling"by siti and dato'sm salim.

Kau Merubah Segalanya

Kau yang merubah segalanya

Kau sebenar yang mencuri hati

Aku yang masih meratapi kehancuran

Cinta lalu yang tak kesampaian

Apakah yang terburu-buru

Cuba melupakan peristiwa lalu

Atau mungkinkah ku terpesona pada

Kejujuran yang engkau berikan

Tercipta suatu ikatan

Yang kita bina

Dari kehancuran masa silam

Oh tuhan kau restukanlah

Cinta indah bagai pelangi

Kekal abadi

Masih jauh sayang

Perjalanan kita

Pasti ada yang beronak duri

Namun tiada yang merubah rasa

Kerna ku tahu kau saja di hati

bon voyage

me wif petra 3/12/2005
Bid farewell to my dear cousin..
he went off to Sidney..
to learn how to fly a plane..
living his dream..

..Nak tau aper kenangan best aku time ramadhan?

itu ayat yang aku jumpa bila aku ikut rules kat bawah..

ditag oleh si farahwahidda..dah berkurun tp br sekarang aku wat..

sori farah..

it was in my post during ramadhan last year -2004..

aku list down seme yang aku akan rindukan bila tiba bulan ramadhan..bila baca balik..memang betul..seme yang aku tulis itu adalah apa yang aku rindukan bila terpaksa berpuasa ditempat orang.berjauhan dari famili dan buat kali pertama dalam hidup sebagai seorang pekerja..atau secara lebih tepat lagi seorang penjawat awam. Tiada yang menarik sangat melainkan apabila dapat berbuka puasa beramai-ramai dengan rakan-rakan.mujurlah ada mereka ini..yang mengubat kerinduan (eceh) sekurang-kurangnya ada jugak perkara yang membuatkan aku ternanti-nanti waktu berbuka..selain masakan mama of course..

juadah berbuka puasa dan bersahur pun seringkas mungkin..ye laa makan sengsorang..apalah sangat nak beria..tapi alhamdulillah.. tak penah miss sahur..kadang-kadang tu mengalir gak air mata esp time kene bukak sengsorang bila hosmet seme balik lambat..aku ingat aku stoneheart..tak tau laa semenjak dua menjak nih..senang ajer mengalirkan air mata..sekali lagi waktu balik ke sini lepas ari raya..

adeh ini baru kl..belum kena posting kat oversea lagi..

tp yang pasti semua ini akan memanjangkan lagi list kenangan best aku di bulan ramadhan..

semoga ia terus panjang dan panjang..sehinggalah mungkin aku di tag sekali lagi..

semoga aku panjang umur untuk terus mengejar keberkatan ramadhan..

dan aku doakan semua mendapat kenangan best di setiap ramadhan yang ditempuhi

lailatul qadar perhaps..?? it would be the greatest memory then...

sesungguhnya bertuah mereka yang menemuinya..

aku tanak tag sesape..bleh tak?sbb aku tak punya masa..dah kul 5.00

dan malas nak pikir..

adios

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berbuat baiklah

got this from yesterday's newspaper..
petikan puisi hamka ke zaaba..
lupelaa dari sape...nanti kalu dh ingat i'll edit it back

"BERBUAT BAIKLAH AYUHAI RAKAN,

KALAU TIDAK DIKENAL INSAN,

DALAM LAUT IA DICAMPAKKAN,

KALAU TIDAK DIKENAL IKAN,

TUHAN TAHU IAKAH BUKAN"

so apalagi..berbuat baiklah..jangan mintak balasan..

ikhlas dihati..pasti diingati

kalau orang tak ingat..jangan risau ..

disisi tuhan dah terpahat kebaikan itu

jalan2 pi kenduri

weekend lepas..aku ingat hari sabtu aku akan sangap..buat kerja-kerja rumah..
huhu..sekali jumaat mlm tuh dpt msg alongUTP "li aku amik ko kul 9 esok"
hmm aku dh sengih..fon kene bar..camne nk cakap buleh nih..tak tau lak die nk pi mane..
adeh..takpe..esok siap jer..
sib baik lam tgh mlm die call.."aku nak pi kenduri ani laa"
adeh..camne aku leh tlupa..die dh bgtau 2 hari lepas..sib baik..aku dh niat nk pakai jeans esok..ingatkn die nk ajak pi bekpes huhu
(utk pengetahuan seme..along ader induction execs kat PERMATA bangi masa tu)
dh janji ngan opismate nk jogging..takpe..sempat kot balik umah before kul 9..huhu..

sabtu 26 nov
subuh2 lg dh ujan..aku sambung tido balik.."mesti tk jadi jogging nih..janji kul 7" lum sempat aku tlelap opismate ku sms" kensel jogging.ujan" ..yes thought so.
aku tsedar lg lam kul 8 kelam kabut siap2..basuh baju seme..kul 930 along call"aku lupa laa jln umah ko..aku tunggu kat petronas ari tuh.." huhu tak jadi nk pakai heel..sbb kene jln jauh skit..kuang kuang..
bermula laa perjalanan kiterang ke rumah kenduri kat rawang..before that singgah kat setiawangsa amik noli (kawan sekampung along) n then amik teck lak kat kepong..singgah umah mak sepupu along..lapar nyer pasal..kiterang bedal biskut raya..haha

pastu gamble pi rawang..tersesat area selayang..tanye2 org rupanya terlepas dh jalannye..
pastuh dh masuk pekan rawang ingatkan dh dekat..sekali rupanya jauh lagi..tak tulis lak baper kilometre lam petanya..dh nk ke highway bkt beruntung upenye..
alhamdulillah sampai gak akhirnye..

ani ni..member aku sekolah menegah ..last jupe die mase f3 kot..sbb lepas pmr die pindah sekolah asrama penuh..tak berubah orangnya masih kecik kiut..seperti dulu.. sorilaa..tak sempat nk sembang pjg2..aku makan tak ingat..dh penat.. bygkan..dr kul 930 kuar..kul 2 lebih baru sampai umah ani..traffic jammed lagi..tak tau laa cemane penat along drive..aku yg co-driver pun nk layu rase.

on the way back kiterang singgah umah kakak mc jah kat setiawangsa..ingatkan mc jah ade..sekali upenye die bawak adik2 die pi times square.ade mak die n kakak die sekeluarga jer..kiterang semayang zohor kat situ..
sbb nk kene rush balik bangi..along ade program ptg tuh..so aku n teck lepak kat PERMATA...sementara tunggu along sempat gak kiterang kuar pi mamak kat pkns pekena teh ais..sib baik kawan teck sudi pinjamkan kete..:D

malam tu pas isyak anta teck ke shah alam..sian along drive..aku leh jd co-driver jer..pastuh dr shah alam kiterang tersilap exit lg..sampai ke usj subang peginyer..huhu
takpeler..jalan2..kul 12 lebih aku sampai putrajaya..

thanks to along..also to wafi n jaha for the cars..nk dekat cover satu selangor kl aku jalan..hahaha..itu ler ari sabtu yg ku sangka sangap

life is full of suprises

ahad 27 nov
ari nih dh janji ngan opismates nk pi kenduri salina(member kt kem.pengangkutan aka MOT) in banting..
huhu penat semalam tak ilang agi..kul 12 kiterang btolak..lalu ikut dengkil..this time peta yg diprovide..straight fwd..senang ler jupe umah die..dekat jln nk pi pantai morib..
tapi nasib baik kiterang tak termasuk salah umah..rupanya ader dua kenduri kat kg tuh..huhu..
sib baik nampak khemah purple n teringat salina ckp die theme purple..
jupe ler geng MOT kt situ..makan best..ala2 jawa.. eheh.. ader tempe masak sambal ikan bilis..daging masak palembang..
memenuhi selera aku tul.. imran n fisy terkejut tgk aku mkn bnyk ..lantaklaa..sedap..
dh sampai pengantin lelaki..kiterang nk blah..geng MOT plan nk pi morib tapi kiterang tak ikut..penat laa..
pastuh pi laa anta fisya kt cyberjaya b4 imran anta aku balik ke putrajaya..
ptg tuh..aku pengsan sampai maghrib.. dah dinner ala2 kadar..aku pengsan balik...penat aa..esok keje..

berakhir weekend aku dgn kenduri2 nya..
tahniah kpd dua pasangan pengantin..satu kawan lama..satu kawan baru..
semoga berbahagia ke akhir hayat

me@work

it was monday..
i was coughing badly..
but still managed to smile for the camera :p